Open up your eyes, then you'll realize......

[cutiepielove]

You know what, ive been thinking about this the past couple days and I dont care who gets mad at me because I swear everyone is mad at me, well not everyone, but you get the point. Anyways, I think I shouldnt have to change myself for another person and I REFUSE to change myself or be ashamed of myself just because people dont agree. Im a christian, I love God, I read the bible ect...SO WHAT. First off, im not a mind reader so if you dont like hearing me talking about how much I love God, then TELL ME! As for Livejournal however, im not going to censor myself, so if that means you wanna take me off your friends list, go ahead, but heres a word for the wise, you dont have to read it, you can just skip it if you see me starting to mention God, its not such a big deal you know? I really dont think that someone should be totally flattened and discouraged and made upset because of who you are. I could easily go off on people for how they are, but I dont 90% of the time because im fairly toleranant. I just dont think people realize how much it hurts to go through what ive gone through in a week. Ive been to the point of tears, ive been to the point of not wanting to care, and its so fustrating, ive been BEYOND the point of fustration. So I highly doubt that im offending a whole bunch of people but I dnt doubt the offense of a few, and for that im seroiously sorry, and I really mean it, I dont mean to offend anyone, I dont like to make waves, I dont even like to ride them, I just want to go with the flow, and I just want to be at peace, I dont want to have to be stressed out the point of tears every other day. So if your mad at me, im truely sorry, and if your offended im just as sorry and im not trying to be a smart aleck, im not trying to make a joke or mockery of any of this because this is a serious thing for me, I hate having people mad at me, and I hate feeling this way, so just please help me out here, cut me a little slack, and just, be there for me because you know I need it, even if you wont admit it. But I will.

K thats it....take this for what you will, but please dont take this in offense. Please dont be any more mad at me than you already are because I cant stand the silence, its killing me....