...but never will I forget my past
so I've spent a lot of time today thinking about what I'm thankful for which led me to restirring old memories which led me to hating myself for even starting the whole process but by then it was too late. Anyway if one more person asks me what I plan to do with the rest of my life, if one more person starts throwing ideas at me for the rest of my life, if one more person plans out my life for me - I might explode. All I want to do is go back while at the same time I just want to go forward. This doesn't even make sense. I always want what I dont have and when I get it I change my mind. Sometimes I even drive myself crazy.
I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.