Just gotta take it one at a time...
So I was a little bummed out earlier today and the original title of this entry was, at that point supposed to be "I used to be undecisive but now I'm not so sure..." But I felt that was a little depressing, especially since my goal now is to keep my spirits up and my confidence high for tomorrow.
So what's been going on? Well, the company's going through a period of serious expansion and reorganization so there's been a lot of new positions both being created and opening up recently. And I, seeing the opportunity, decided to step up and take the challenge.
From my vantage point, I was a total shoe-in for one of the positions. First off, it was directly above mine... in fact THE next level up. So it's not like I was asking to make some huge leap that I wasn't qualified for or anything. Secondly, although the work is slightly different and you get more responsibilities, it's not anything new to me. It's stuff that I've all done before, albeit not on a daily basis, but I would occasionally take on the added responsibility or special project that this new position involved. Third, the person who left the position was not only really nice to me, but she actually recommended me (as well as this one other girl) for the position! She even complimented my attention to detail in the process! I even did really super on the interview, answering "Yes" to every question that the boss asked to see if I had experience with this or that. So you can definitely see that this was headed toward a good direction.
Unfortunately, I found out today that the other girl that was recommended for the position actually got it. So that was a bit of a bummer for me. Additionally, I was applying for a training position and I though that even though I was a bit underqualified for that one, I had the talent and ingenuity to make up for that. Unfortunately for me, the hiring lady wanted everything: the talent, the ingenuity, AND the experience that I didn't have. That one wasn't that bad of a blow since she did clarify that it was an admin position and I'm not really interested in doing admin. But added together, the two were quite devasting.
So sum them up and there I was, driving home with a dark cloud over my head and thinking to myself "Man, I tried twice and was rejected twice, even from a pretty basic position that I really should have gotten. Should I even keep going with this? And if so, how will I get my confidence levels back up so I can make at least a decent impression for the final round of interviews tomorrow before they decide who will get another position that I'm applying to?" All this was running through my head as I drove home and I actually got so distracted/ worried at one point that I actually let the car drift a little over the yellow divider bumps. But don't worry, I'm okay!
In fact, this story has a happy ending. So I come home and I see my lil bro playing video games. He comes up to me and says he has good news: He'll be training in Seattle for a whole month and even though he might not make it back in time for the strawberry festival that I was really looking forward to going with him to, I can visit him anytime within that month and even have a place to stay for free. Yay! To top things off, I found a flyer for a local Indian restaurant in front of the house and he decided to treat me out. So we went out for some good Indian food, which I've been craving for nearly a month now, and my spirits were completely restored. Even though it was simple, just some good, all-you-can-eat food with some typical conversation, it really made me realize how great it was to have family members that you can just talk to and vent to. Not only did I feel better after venting, but it really helped me to be able to be happy for him. We even set a couple goals to inspire each other to be healthier, like going to the gym and having a decent bedtime schedule.
Speaking of which, I'm a little behind on that so I better get going. Wish me luck tomorrow!
So what's been going on? Well, the company's going through a period of serious expansion and reorganization so there's been a lot of new positions both being created and opening up recently. And I, seeing the opportunity, decided to step up and take the challenge.
From my vantage point, I was a total shoe-in for one of the positions. First off, it was directly above mine... in fact THE next level up. So it's not like I was asking to make some huge leap that I wasn't qualified for or anything. Secondly, although the work is slightly different and you get more responsibilities, it's not anything new to me. It's stuff that I've all done before, albeit not on a daily basis, but I would occasionally take on the added responsibility or special project that this new position involved. Third, the person who left the position was not only really nice to me, but she actually recommended me (as well as this one other girl) for the position! She even complimented my attention to detail in the process! I even did really super on the interview, answering "Yes" to every question that the boss asked to see if I had experience with this or that. So you can definitely see that this was headed toward a good direction.
Unfortunately, I found out today that the other girl that was recommended for the position actually got it. So that was a bit of a bummer for me. Additionally, I was applying for a training position and I though that even though I was a bit underqualified for that one, I had the talent and ingenuity to make up for that. Unfortunately for me, the hiring lady wanted everything: the talent, the ingenuity, AND the experience that I didn't have. That one wasn't that bad of a blow since she did clarify that it was an admin position and I'm not really interested in doing admin. But added together, the two were quite devasting.
So sum them up and there I was, driving home with a dark cloud over my head and thinking to myself "Man, I tried twice and was rejected twice, even from a pretty basic position that I really should have gotten. Should I even keep going with this? And if so, how will I get my confidence levels back up so I can make at least a decent impression for the final round of interviews tomorrow before they decide who will get another position that I'm applying to?" All this was running through my head as I drove home and I actually got so distracted/ worried at one point that I actually let the car drift a little over the yellow divider bumps. But don't worry, I'm okay!
In fact, this story has a happy ending. So I come home and I see my lil bro playing video games. He comes up to me and says he has good news: He'll be training in Seattle for a whole month and even though he might not make it back in time for the strawberry festival that I was really looking forward to going with him to, I can visit him anytime within that month and even have a place to stay for free. Yay! To top things off, I found a flyer for a local Indian restaurant in front of the house and he decided to treat me out. So we went out for some good Indian food, which I've been craving for nearly a month now, and my spirits were completely restored. Even though it was simple, just some good, all-you-can-eat food with some typical conversation, it really made me realize how great it was to have family members that you can just talk to and vent to. Not only did I feel better after venting, but it really helped me to be able to be happy for him. We even set a couple goals to inspire each other to be healthier, like going to the gym and having a decent bedtime schedule.
Speaking of which, I'm a little behind on that so I better get going. Wish me luck tomorrow!