Merry Christmas Eve!!!!!
So so so happy right now!!! :-) I have a serious case of Christmas cheer!!!
The strangest thing just happened...I was trying to get up and motivated so I wanted to listen to some Christmas music. I attempted to get my launch player to work, but since I'm on dial-up, it was being tempormental and wouldn't work. So finally I was like fine...I'll just put on my radio, I'm sure there's Christmas music on some station. So I turn it on and on the station thats on when I turn it on is "Ave Maria." (For those of you who don't know, that was one of my mom's favorite songs...they played it at all the services when she passed away) And I just sat there and smiled. Usually it makes me sad to here that song, but not today. I know she's here with me as I type this right now, and it makes me so happy.
Last night while baking cookies and drinking cocktails, my sister and I talked about my mom for the longest time. That never happens...its like taboo in my family or something, but we talked and we laughed at silly stories and smiled at happy memories and it made me so happy. It was just what I needed. My sister even compared me to my mom, and thats like the biggest compliment in the world for me. It made me sooooo happy to remember her. Sometimes I get scared and I think that I'm forgetting things, like how she smelled or how she looked or how her voice sounded, but talking to my sister last night made me remember and I left her house happier then I've been in months.
Its looking like its going to be a great Christmas.
The strangest thing just happened...I was trying to get up and motivated so I wanted to listen to some Christmas music. I attempted to get my launch player to work, but since I'm on dial-up, it was being tempormental and wouldn't work. So finally I was like fine...I'll just put on my radio, I'm sure there's Christmas music on some station. So I turn it on and on the station thats on when I turn it on is "Ave Maria." (For those of you who don't know, that was one of my mom's favorite songs...they played it at all the services when she passed away) And I just sat there and smiled. Usually it makes me sad to here that song, but not today. I know she's here with me as I type this right now, and it makes me so happy.
Last night while baking cookies and drinking cocktails, my sister and I talked about my mom for the longest time. That never happens...its like taboo in my family or something, but we talked and we laughed at silly stories and smiled at happy memories and it made me so happy. It was just what I needed. My sister even compared me to my mom, and thats like the biggest compliment in the world for me. It made me sooooo happy to remember her. Sometimes I get scared and I think that I'm forgetting things, like how she smelled or how she looked or how her voice sounded, but talking to my sister last night made me remember and I left her house happier then I've been in months.
Its looking like its going to be a great Christmas.