Mistakes made, are they worth repeating? Curiosity will be the death...
The first degree was a riot
You were making sure
My lesson's learned
I'm not ashamed but I'm trying
I've come to expect the standards you have set...
Tell me just how dangerous is second best
You've settled for less and I'm sure you'll settle again
You'll settle for less
Hmm so I'm confused about a lot of things in life..nothing new. I'm also pretty sure of many things...but some things I'm confused and pretty sure about..I really dont get how THAT works haha. I don't know what I should do with a lot of things..and my curiosity is going to get the best of me..and I just hope the consequences won't suck completely..but then again I'm sure I can take whatever comes my way..I mean I've been thru a shit load so.. as long as no1 dies..I think I can handle it. Fuck em. And I must say some people's persistantance shocked me..I didnt realize they had it in them. ha. sweet. And some "friend(s)" are really pissing me off lately. like since when did you start thinking you were the shit and start talking to me like a complete bitch...sorry hunny, I'll cut you off reaaaaaaaal quick and won't even flinch...So keep it up and I'm out, no warning..I've done it before and will again so go ahead and tempt me.
Whoever I was then. I can never be again.
My friend called me earlier and said something about some guy to be my boyfriend or something? and then said hed call me back...I was just like uhhm.. okay? haha...fuckin people. I guess thats what I get for hanging out with spastic metal bands haahah...gotta love em.
Oh and apparantly I'm supposed to wear my black pants tonight or something...cuz Steves gonna kill me if I dont..or I'm supposed to wear em when we do it..I dont remember haha ..either way I dont think I'm wearing them tonight, lol. But then again I only know the shirt I'm wearing..I'm not even sure what long sleeve I'm going to wear underneath it. And I'm still curious if Chris is coming over, cuz he has today off and I havent heard ANYthing..and I kinda have to like get ready while he's over too..haha. So I'll feel kinda bad if he does show, but I'm sure he won't mind haha. I have 2 hours when I get outta work to get everything done before I go out..and I honestly feel like I have 2 seconds I'm all like anxious haha. Like its a big fricken deal or something..I'm so overdramatic..haha NOT
The closer I look is the further that you get
Already stubborn skin thickens
In a valiant attempt to understand
So understand. There's no stopping this
I'm gutting you out. There's no stopping me
I got tired of waiting, waiting, and I'm still waiting...
When the guilt subsides the night begins...
Came as a gift from a good friend
That disapproves, but understands
That you represent and actively encourage All of my worst habits
They all are proof That we're both capable of the most terrible things
"Don't test me"
There's no stopping this
I'm gutting you out
I know it's not what you deserve.
Still, there's no stopping me...
I'm gutting you out.
I'm lame, and I'm over it :).. You'll see. Its all worth it in the end. And you're already over it too, I promise.