Knew you were Trouble back then...but That's what turned Me on...
By the time I come home, you're already STONED.
sometimes I think I might be happier if I was a druggie haha. but then again, I'd be a lot less reliable..and people hold me to that.
You're sick of feeling
d
o
w
n
You're not the only one
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Pain, without love
Paint, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Okay so I can't talk about my weekend, cuz I have already overdone that one haha..
So moving on to whats happened this week hmm..I had a chill out day Monday...and my plans for tonight got changed, so tonight is going to be a chill out night too :)...had some girlfriend time on Tuesday, Hannah and I made chicken and mashed potatos and corn...and Elisha loves my mashed potatos so she came over for dinner too.. it was a good time.. Ben showed up and we were taking pictures while the girls were watchin a movie..and we were hysterical..Ben walked in and was just like "...whats going?" all confused, it was hilarious..and before he came in he only popped his head in and Elisha like freaked, and scared me...I knew Ben was coming so I wasn't scared or anything, but Elisha jumping when shes like an inch away from me and Hannah startled me haha. So of course we burst out into laughter..At one point Elisha and I pulled out our phones and were taking pictures of the kids..I got some HILARIOUS ones of Emma cuz the flash was so bright so she'd like pose and then start squinting her eyes cuz she couldnt see..it made out to be veryyy amusing pictures..and Elisha, Hannah and I were taking a 3 way lay down picture after that, and there were some funny ones from that too..Elisha had like stretched out slits for eyes in one of em, it was greeeeeeeeeeat.
uhh then last night I had school and then met up with my friend Amy at applebees up by my school..its like the ONE applebees that still has my all-time favorite meal.. the other applebees stopped making it...but Ive grown to like the steak/shrimp compo..two for 1 deal or whatever..so its okay.. I still need to go to an Unos and some other places..cuz Ive never been.. theres a place called LongHorn up in Millbury..no clue what thats like..I bet its expensive though, haha. Ive been to TGI Fridays..ONCE..I really only ever go to Chilis or Applebees..Im gonna have to start exploring other restaurants..to see if they have anything I'd like haha.
And now its Thursday..and like I said..its chill out night..so maybe I can work on cleaning off my dresser cuz I want to get my new one like NOWWW, hopefully they still have one left :-\...but I'm lazy so Idk if I'll really get anywhere with the cleaning haha.
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
I kinda miss the blink 182 and angels and airwaves marathons on friday/saturday nights..what a bummer. Man I'm good at missing things...but its never anything worth it haha. go me. That probably wont make any sense to you..so just skip this line..and go to the next.hah.
You know, You know, you know
I'm always here for you
I know, I know, I know
That you'll thank me later
Gosh, I love lyrics :) haha..and so does everyone else..so no complaining :-p I haven't been able to really go to sleep early in a long time..its weird..I dont know why..and I get up like 7-ish pretty much everyday, and I'm def tired/exhausted..yet once 8pm passes I'm like not tired and don't feel like laying down...then I end up watchin tv or reading or something for another 2 hours..or talkin to people..Pass out like 1030 OR SO..and then get up the next morning and I'm fricken tired..what is up with that?? Even on my one day off I still dont sleep in...like last weekend I went to bed at like 2:30-3 or so and I still woke up at 8:30..I was like whats the deaaaaaaaal..ugh it sucks..but whatever..thats just how it is sometimes ...blah!
This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song, for you and only you
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now
You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now I'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.
I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone, this is the last song
So...that was my week so far.. tomorrow I'm plannin on goin out to Nolle's sweeeeet house with some people..we'll see though..maybe I'll just be a bum, who knows haha. Then Saturday..dinner with Zandra and Chris! :) And then Zan and I are goin off to Kyle's house to meet up with "the boy" haha..and then off to the show..for another late nightttttttttttt... shall be interesting...Then sunday my mom sister and I are going to see Because I Said So, which should be VERY entertaining..and then its famillllllly time...
The h e a r t s start b r e a k i n g as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
Somehow I knew that I would be this way,
Somehow I knew that I would slowly f a d e
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.
And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too.
hmm.. next week is gonna suck..I have a test and a quiz on monday, and then a test on weds..so yeah not gonna be fun..then Tuesday I gotta get my 3rd and final shot for the set. I'll be glad to have that over, ugh..Hate Shots! And my gym class is over in like 2 weeks..kinda happy (kinda mad that I'll have to like do a demo for the class and stuff)..but also kinda sad, cuz its kept me working out..and once its gone, I probably wont work out.. ZANDRA..that means we have to go to the club a lot, so I can start sweating off pounds..chubby me, blech! uhm okay well I'm finally gonna be gettin some food..Daddy should be back in like 1/2 hr then 2 more hours to waste of work...oh joy.
"Will you take these up for me?"
"Sure, you're gonna owe me..."
"Oh yeah?"
"BIG!"
hahahah what a dork!