I'm gettin closer..I'm making my way back home to YOU.
Baby what am I to do??????????
So let's continue, haha. Hmm people drive me crazy- good and bad.. and just in general..I'm not really angry or sad or anything right now..I'm just blah..I'm not tired..not bored..not stressed...pretty much I'm nothing right now.. WEIRD. so what else have I been up to..hmm...tried to repair some friendships, don't know why I bothered though cuz I know they aren't gonna let that happen .. no matter how many times they say "I'm good, We'll be good" and it'll never be like it was for more than just the one bad thing.. which sucks...cuz I'm not gonna fuck up their life to just get myself back in, that'd be retarded...But as long as they're happy I can deal with not being in it haha.
To someone just like you
who always gets confused
between love and abuse
and all the people you use
or someone just like me
who can't go to sleep
without falling in love
without playing for keeps
but we can touch the sky if we only try
I don't know
why the water breaks
but the wind in my hair makes me feel like i'm someone stronger
I don't know
why I make mistakes
but all i can hope is the pain will only make us stronger
is it the air in my breath..that makes you afraid that..
I'm about to say what I never should say
I loved you.
So probably for like the past month or so I've hung with Arora like every weekend.. crazy shit...even around all her parents' strictness lately..we managed to hang out like every week haha that's funny! Uhm Arora and I didn't really do much most of the time we just hung out but last weekend we went out with a bunch of people. Saturday night Elisha and Hannah- I guess? made plans to go to the movies..and Hannah and I made plans to go have dinner first so I had to go pick up Hannah's ass, AFTER I got home from work and Arora got dropped off haha, but Hannah's car is a P.O.S. so I went to her house..then jumped on the highway up to Millbury..got off the highway not realizing I was already on the right one, WHAT WHAT ;-) Where Hannah made fun of me for next like 20 minutes..
but anyway..we ended up goin to Applebee's..place was packed so we got on the wait list and then we went shopping for like 10 minutes...went back in..ate..then went shopping again and met up with Ben, Scotty and Elisha..at Babies R Us hahahahha. then eventually we went to the movie (The Hitcher) it was good..at one point the 4 of us girls all jumped like in unison. haha and then another time a scary part came up and I woulda jumped but Hannah jumped like so fuckin high and was really scared that I just burst out laughing instead..and everyone in the theater is all scared..I just kept laughing for like 10 minutes..it was fantastic...we also met Rob and his gf and sis at the theater so they watched the movie with us :) Overall the movie was good..and then Arora and I just went home and watched part of Step Up and passed out. haha. good times. Hmm I also made Arora a livejournal account cuz she was supposed to set one up like 6 months ago prolly by now haha.and she hasnt..so it'd be really nice if she stopped being a fuckin lesbian for a second and posted..but apparantly not..
Same with you, you fuckin slut (ZANDRA ;-)) ..you need to update lovely!! hahahahah