Your eyes give you away..breakdown, go ahead give it to me
So I left off on Weds before work last week....hmm...let's see what I've done.
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me
hmm so...yeah weds I just worked as far as aI remember....Thursday I hung out with Ben, came home, then went back there and we headed to Joe's....lots of texting between me and Joe and Ben and Sara..I was in a very bad mood. and there was a very annoying chick there. I wish I had been the only girl then I woulda been okay. hahah altho I was happy at one point when Cheeks wanted to play catch pretzels and goldfish in my mouth, and Joe and I threw pretzels at him and Ben threw goldfish..I ended up nailing Cheeks in the eye at least once, it was fuckin hilarious...but yeah that night was pretty shitty overall...but whatever..ended up comin home by like 1....
I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey
shades of blue........so Friday..I hung out with Zan for part of the day...had to go out to Walmart to figure out my damn plans....got yelled at for not hanging with someone on their break....I had a great day, then that. but then even worse.. Elisha decided to bitch at me about her car and Dan gave me shit about stuff he shouldn't bother thinking about........and then Ben was very pissy, and I was hanging out with Ben, Elisha and Mike. so yeah. that was a fuckin great start. fortunately after the damn movie we saw, Click--it was great, we were all good again and I wasn't so fuckin aggravated. Ben ended up driving even though he hates driving people..like more than one person around, what a good sport! haha.
hmmm Saturday I had to wrok, got out at 4 instead of 5, so ran home and then had to get sara around 730 and then meet ben at roseland and follow him all the way back out to charlton....hung out with all the cool people at his brothers house, didn't really have fun. people were really lame and I ended up mostly talkin to ben and we were both pissed off. yay for fuckin stupid ass people...so then I drove Dan and Derek back to Derek's cuz dan was stayin there, and Sara was passed out in the back seat--she sleptover-- and then drove Joe home. yay for Joe, I regained my sanity on the ride home...although someone fucked up the shit on my window, but Joe fixed it when we got to his house so :) hahaha...
Now I don't really even know who I am
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me
Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got
SO then I had to work Sunday at 9...........so I got out a little before 3, Sara ended up going home sick and then it was just me and cindy and I had to be out before 3 so I didnt get in trouble..so fortuately ben was in to help her out when I left. cuz we lost power like twice and it completely fucked up the printer and backed us up like 3 hours..yeah, fuckin whore ass whitney...she didn't get enough crack I guess...you'll only understand if you work with us so anyway...they got it caught up like 2 hours after I left, I felt bad for leaving but I couldn't stay cuz I wasnt takin a lunch and if I did it woulda been pointless. so Arora, Olga, and Zan ended up comin over and we all went to Walmart and hung out there for at elast an hour ...and then drove them home and Zan and I hung out...we got Ben to go to Carvel with us and we all ate ice cream in my car, talked, and listened to good music...and then Zan couldnt get a sex date :-p so we ended up gettin pawned into going back to Walmart for someone's lunch...good times..spilled milkshake, poor saturn, I'm surprised his gf didnt kill the kid hahaha. and then unexpected guests appeared behind us....but no biggie, who cares, right zan? ;-) Monday I had to work and Zandra sleptover as far as I remember....and I don't remember what happened.. so yeah moving on........
You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one's around
Do what I have to do
What ever happens to you
You're on your own now believe me
What do I have to say
You're on your own now believe me
It's not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now believe me
okay so..Tuesday ended up hanging at Ben's ... we watched the Ringer and Running Scared. both good. When the FUCK did we get ice cream? ...Can I have my ice cream now?
and Running Scared was good but veryyyyyy fucked up, but verrrry interesting, you couldn't really guess what would happen next and it was kinda confusing haha. so yeah then I came home and Zan meet me here and we drove out after a while to bring the movies back, made plans with a duck, but he's fuckin lame and ended up bailing when we were supposed to hang..so we had wasted time and drove up to greenville and got applebees so we could hang out at a certain time, just to find out that it was no longer happening..so we drove around a bit and then just came back here. she left shortly after 11...and I took some good pictures
;-) hahahaha. today I worked, and then hung out with Jeremy, spent like 5 mins at home...mostly had to change and refresh then drive a half hr to meet him. we went to NY Pizza, I got to see Kay :) and yeah...that's pretty much it, drove around for a bit..then went to Walmart and visited Grant (yes I had just worked a couple hours earlier, I'm over it...) and visited some other cool people working..Shawn yelled at me cuz he thought I was leaving without even saying hi, fortunately I wasn't so he couldn't get mad at me :) haha YESsssssss.. haha oh boy Zan, we're fucked. dude hey.
and I have to be up for work again at 8 tomorrow, fortunately Hannah is in with me once again...and maybe some hanging out with Stef and others tomorrow night, that'd be hot shit...cross ya fingas :-p haha
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now believe me
hmm so...yeah weds I just worked as far as aI remember....Thursday I hung out with Ben, came home, then went back there and we headed to Joe's....lots of texting between me and Joe and Ben and Sara..I was in a very bad mood. and there was a very annoying chick there. I wish I had been the only girl then I woulda been okay. hahah altho I was happy at one point when Cheeks wanted to play catch pretzels and goldfish in my mouth, and Joe and I threw pretzels at him and Ben threw goldfish..I ended up nailing Cheeks in the eye at least once, it was fuckin hilarious...but yeah that night was pretty shitty overall...but whatever..ended up comin home by like 1....
I don't want to be the one to blame
You like fun and games
Keep playing em
I'm just sayin
Think back then
We was like one and the same
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey
shades of blue........so Friday..I hung out with Zan for part of the day...had to go out to Walmart to figure out my damn plans....got yelled at for not hanging with someone on their break....I had a great day, then that. but then even worse.. Elisha decided to bitch at me about her car and Dan gave me shit about stuff he shouldn't bother thinking about........and then Ben was very pissy, and I was hanging out with Ben, Elisha and Mike. so yeah. that was a fuckin great start. fortunately after the damn movie we saw, Click--it was great, we were all good again and I wasn't so fuckin aggravated. Ben ended up driving even though he hates driving people..like more than one person around, what a good sport! haha.
hmmm Saturday I had to wrok, got out at 4 instead of 5, so ran home and then had to get sara around 730 and then meet ben at roseland and follow him all the way back out to charlton....hung out with all the cool people at his brothers house, didn't really have fun. people were really lame and I ended up mostly talkin to ben and we were both pissed off. yay for fuckin stupid ass people...so then I drove Dan and Derek back to Derek's cuz dan was stayin there, and Sara was passed out in the back seat--she sleptover-- and then drove Joe home. yay for Joe, I regained my sanity on the ride home...although someone fucked up the shit on my window, but Joe fixed it when we got to his house so :) hahaha...
Now I don't really even know who I am
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen to me
Back then, I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you proved to me unintentionally
That you would self-destruct eventually
Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
I wished you were something that you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got
SO then I had to work Sunday at 9...........so I got out a little before 3, Sara ended up going home sick and then it was just me and cindy and I had to be out before 3 so I didnt get in trouble..so fortuately ben was in to help her out when I left. cuz we lost power like twice and it completely fucked up the printer and backed us up like 3 hours..yeah, fuckin whore ass whitney...she didn't get enough crack I guess...you'll only understand if you work with us so anyway...they got it caught up like 2 hours after I left, I felt bad for leaving but I couldn't stay cuz I wasnt takin a lunch and if I did it woulda been pointless. so Arora, Olga, and Zan ended up comin over and we all went to Walmart and hung out there for at elast an hour ...and then drove them home and Zan and I hung out...we got Ben to go to Carvel with us and we all ate ice cream in my car, talked, and listened to good music...and then Zan couldnt get a sex date :-p so we ended up gettin pawned into going back to Walmart for someone's lunch...good times..spilled milkshake, poor saturn, I'm surprised his gf didnt kill the kid hahaha. and then unexpected guests appeared behind us....but no biggie, who cares, right zan? ;-) Monday I had to work and Zandra sleptover as far as I remember....and I don't remember what happened.. so yeah moving on........
You turned your back
And walked away in shame
All you got is a memory of pain
Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head when no one's around
Do what I have to do
What ever happens to you
You're on your own now believe me
What do I have to say
You're on your own now believe me
It's not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now believe me
okay so..Tuesday ended up hanging at Ben's ... we watched the Ringer and Running Scared. both good. When the FUCK did we get ice cream? ...Can I have my ice cream now?
and Running Scared was good but veryyyyyy fucked up, but verrrry interesting, you couldn't really guess what would happen next and it was kinda confusing haha. so yeah then I came home and Zan meet me here and we drove out after a while to bring the movies back, made plans with a duck, but he's fuckin lame and ended up bailing when we were supposed to hang..so we had wasted time and drove up to greenville and got applebees so we could hang out at a certain time, just to find out that it was no longer happening..so we drove around a bit and then just came back here. she left shortly after 11...and I took some good pictures
;-) hahahaha. today I worked, and then hung out with Jeremy, spent like 5 mins at home...mostly had to change and refresh then drive a half hr to meet him. we went to NY Pizza, I got to see Kay :) and yeah...that's pretty much it, drove around for a bit..then went to Walmart and visited Grant (yes I had just worked a couple hours earlier, I'm over it...) and visited some other cool people working..Shawn yelled at me cuz he thought I was leaving without even saying hi, fortunately I wasn't so he couldn't get mad at me :) haha YESsssssss.. haha oh boy Zan, we're fucked. dude hey.
and I have to be up for work again at 8 tomorrow, fortunately Hannah is in with me once again...and maybe some hanging out with Stef and others tomorrow night, that'd be hot shit...cross ya fingas :-p haha