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This is going to be one looong entry so be ready to read! lol Today was a wonderful day for me! <3 lol Had the awards which was boring..lol Then after went to Denny's with momma and the Walshs..Sam and I took Jen to get icecream but, it was still to early lol so he took her to the store to get candy instead lol..Dropped her off back at school then we went back to school..It was lunch time...Went to fourth and had to do work! Geesh lol...Kinda relaxing day...Things still have not hit me yet...and I think tomorrow may be a harder day to get threw! But I still love you all...now heres something I wrote yesterday!..
I don't even know where to begin..or how to even start off...My highschool years have took me on an amazing rollercoaster ride...So many ups and downs, twists and turns..I'm kinda upset! I don't want it to end...But, I have to! I was just starting to feel like I was someone and I have to walk away from it..I have no choice..To look back on the last four years of my life I've come a long way. I remember starting off in a new high school and new place to live...Sitting in the wrong science class on the first day of school freshman year..It was hard for me at first but, everyone was so nice and welcoming...I learned to open my heart to someone and to others..Something I never done before and I am so happy that I met you and you were able to see the good in me..You showed me that it was okay to love someone...I went out and had fun for the first time in my life! I was able to have a best friend and do everything and talk about anything! It was a year with ups and downs...But, a year I will never ever forget...So many memories and thank you's...The month of May of that year tears fell, for the second time about moving...I was moving again...farther away from the ones I cared more about then anything!...A summer went by and I started a new high school...It never filled my heart the way GJ did..It was hard for me...I picked up something new and began to open up...I learned how to be on stage and how much I missed that...I was performing again! Something I forgot I knew how to do! The drama of high school came and went...It opened my eyes and my mind to many different situations...I've also learned to delt with the hardest things in life...Because of you guys I am who I am today...All of you have showed me so much! And always telling me to be stong! Thank you..
These two different high schools have taught me so much! I never knew what it was like to have true friends, I never knew how to love and let others in, I never knew what it was like to be heart broken, I never knew what fun was all about, I never knew that it doesn't matter what others think, I never knew that it's okay to cry for no reason, I never knew that you go threw rough times in your life that you can't change what happens, you have to deal with it, I never knew that one person can make you happy even if you just met them, I never knew that it was hard to deal with moving and I wasn't alone, I never knew what love was, I never knew what a real hug/kiss was, I never knew that feeling you get inside when someone loves you and holds you, I never knew what it was like to be in someones arms, I never knew what it was like to fall asleep in someones arms, I never knew what it was like to have someone who likes me for me, I never knew what a team player was, I never knew what lettin go of everything was, I never knew how much work it was to be a leader, I never knew that happiness means so much in life ...If it wasn't for the last four years I would have never known the answer to these statements...One thing I've learned...Is I hate saying goodbyes...Even if I'm going to see you again tomorrow...It's not the same this time..I feel like I'm moving away once again..for the 9th time or so...I may never see some of you again..and as much as it upsets me...I'm happy because I was lucky enough to get to know you...Everyone who I ever met thank you! No matter who you were every one has made some kind of impact on my life...You may not even know it but, wow words can't even explain how I feel...I'm going to miss talking to some of you...Yes, I know we can still meet up somewhere and talk on the phone but it's not the same...Just don't ever forget about your friends! And remember no matter who you are I'm always here for you! Even if I don't talk to you in 10 years! Never be afraid to pick the cell and call me! I love you all and never forget that!!
So as the tears may fall the memories will never fade...It's time to move on to bigger and better things...I hope you don't forget these precious four years we've had..because it's time to say goodbye to the class of 2005....<3333
look at all the pictures
of the past thinking of how
the years went by soo fast
the dances,the parties, the jokes
the laughs the shoulders to cry on and cute photos
the people ive known since way back when
the new kids came every now and then
the friendships you make come and go
but theres always those few
youll always know
now as we go our separate ways
i know ill always remember these days <33