this is it now, everybody get down.
Grrrr.
IDK whats going on with my life.
its like when somehting bad happens, everything goes bad.
First Katie's leaving. She can't leave. She just can't. I am going to miss her so so much. ugh i can't even talk about that now.
Then Jay quit. I can't believe he quit. He was one of the BEST people i have ever known. And now i will never see him again. I didn't even get a chance to say good-bye. You don't even understand how i feel about this.
Then the whole thing with Peter. I don't want to say much cause i don't know who reads this. But i don't know what to do. I just wish at least one person would tell me what i want to hear, but so far no one has.
Then my aunt gets central air so shes giving us her 2 air conditioners cause our central air is a piece of SHIT. But shes only getting it like next week so she gave us one appparently tonight, so my dad puts it in the living room. WTF? My room is like 1000 degrees and u put it in the living room? the whole purpose of getting air conditioning is for my room cause its always hotter than a normal room since the only window i have is a skylight and it barely opens and im on the 3rd floor. But he doesn't care cause hes nice and cool in the living room.
Then i called Julie back tonight cause mom said she called and to call her back. So i did and she had like a 15 minute conversation with her MOM while i was still on the phone with her. and then she talks and talk and talks but the second i start saying something, either someones on her other line or her mom starts talking to her. She just kept talking about her meeting up with her friend peter tomorrow.
She noted that i was upset but didn't bother to ask why. Didn't ask if anything was new. i could have told her about Newport, Katie, Jay, Peter, Work, anything. But she didn't ask.
FUCK THAT. my dad just came up here. he was mad cause i asked him why he put the air conditioner in the living room. and he told me i should be going to bed earlier cause he woke up last night at 2 and i was still awake. what the fucking point?! i do nothing all day anyway. i have NO life. so when i go to bed earlier i can wake up at 8 in the morning to do nothing some more? yeah fuck no. and he asked me if i could babysit kristina thursday. why does this guy ask me to babysit everyday im working?! It fucking sucks becuase then i have to wake up at 6 and then when she leaves i go straight to work. and i hate this kid. shes so annoying. and shes like obsessed with me. He doens't NEED me to babysit. he already has a babysitter for her brother but since she loves me so much, i have to babysit her on the same day. And i always have to constantly doing something with her for like 10 fucking hours. And i will have to be putting on this overly happy act with her when i will undoubtably be very UNhappy that day.
IDK whats going on with my life.
its like when somehting bad happens, everything goes bad.
First Katie's leaving. She can't leave. She just can't. I am going to miss her so so much. ugh i can't even talk about that now.
Then Jay quit. I can't believe he quit. He was one of the BEST people i have ever known. And now i will never see him again. I didn't even get a chance to say good-bye. You don't even understand how i feel about this.
Then the whole thing with Peter. I don't want to say much cause i don't know who reads this. But i don't know what to do. I just wish at least one person would tell me what i want to hear, but so far no one has.
Then my aunt gets central air so shes giving us her 2 air conditioners cause our central air is a piece of SHIT. But shes only getting it like next week so she gave us one appparently tonight, so my dad puts it in the living room. WTF? My room is like 1000 degrees and u put it in the living room? the whole purpose of getting air conditioning is for my room cause its always hotter than a normal room since the only window i have is a skylight and it barely opens and im on the 3rd floor. But he doesn't care cause hes nice and cool in the living room.
Then i called Julie back tonight cause mom said she called and to call her back. So i did and she had like a 15 minute conversation with her MOM while i was still on the phone with her. and then she talks and talk and talks but the second i start saying something, either someones on her other line or her mom starts talking to her. She just kept talking about her meeting up with her friend peter tomorrow.
She noted that i was upset but didn't bother to ask why. Didn't ask if anything was new. i could have told her about Newport, Katie, Jay, Peter, Work, anything. But she didn't ask.
FUCK THAT. my dad just came up here. he was mad cause i asked him why he put the air conditioner in the living room. and he told me i should be going to bed earlier cause he woke up last night at 2 and i was still awake. what the fucking point?! i do nothing all day anyway. i have NO life. so when i go to bed earlier i can wake up at 8 in the morning to do nothing some more? yeah fuck no. and he asked me if i could babysit kristina thursday. why does this guy ask me to babysit everyday im working?! It fucking sucks becuase then i have to wake up at 6 and then when she leaves i go straight to work. and i hate this kid. shes so annoying. and shes like obsessed with me. He doens't NEED me to babysit. he already has a babysitter for her brother but since she loves me so much, i have to babysit her on the same day. And i always have to constantly doing something with her for like 10 fucking hours. And i will have to be putting on this overly happy act with her when i will undoubtably be very UNhappy that day.