Jul 22, 2007 00:26
i start college in nine days. i don't even know what to do. i just got in a fight with my mom about how she wants me to pack up everything in my room and put it in the attic (which she's been bugging me about all summer) and i told her i feel like she's trying to get me out as fast as she can. im going to come back to an empty guest room and its not going to feel like home.
in the nine days i have left, one is going to be water country with the family. one is bens graduation thing. hopefully one is boston with eve. but that leaves me with six days left unplanned. then i have work for three of those days. so i have three days left.
THREE EMPTY DAYS. and way more than three people that i really need to see and say goodbye to.
my mom just came back into my room to nag me some more about packing everything away. and i was crying and telling her that i don't care about my room right now and its not what i'm upset about at the moment and that i'll clean it and i understand. she can't seem to realize that im upset about saying goodbye to people. and she just kept going on and on about it and saying that its "my responsability". i dont understand how she can be so abrupt and uncomforting about this. this isn't about a fucking room.
i don't know how to handle this. why am i leaving so early??