(no subject)
I just want to vent a little bit.
i did something stupid a month ago which was somehow discovered last week and now i have so many people mad at me. and i don't want to feel sorry for myself, because i consciously did this thing, and i'm definetly the bitch and not the victim in the situation, but it just sucks to have this happen so close to the end of the year. i dont want to have to deal with drama right now, i want to be able to just have a great time and enjoy the last few weeks i have with most of these people. but its so bad right now that i can't even sit anywhere at lunch because people hate me (yay library). and i'm basically not in follies anymore. i had a pretty big part, but it was mysteriously given away because people (well a certain person) didn't want to deal with being near me. but at the same time, its completely understandable that she hates me. ughhh i dont know, its just dumb that people can't be mature enough to either talk to me about it, instead of behind my back, or just deal with me being in follies and act around it. its a great feeling when a group of people gets queit when you walk over, because you know they were just discussing various (and probably untrue) aspects of your personal life. i just wish that this problem could have stayed between the three people involved, and not the rest of the grade. people have no business spreading rumors about me. yes it was partly my fault, but it wasn't completly my fault and i'm upset that the other person involved has been completely forgiven. but thats the way this always works out.
i have a follies rehearsal in, like an hour. but really theres no point in me even showing up. i could easily not even go to the shows and nobody would care. woooooo.i CANNOT WAIT to leave for college in august. then i'll never have to see any of these people again until ten years from now at our high school reunion when they'll all be fat, unsuccessful soccer moms who still live in durham.
i did something stupid a month ago which was somehow discovered last week and now i have so many people mad at me. and i don't want to feel sorry for myself, because i consciously did this thing, and i'm definetly the bitch and not the victim in the situation, but it just sucks to have this happen so close to the end of the year. i dont want to have to deal with drama right now, i want to be able to just have a great time and enjoy the last few weeks i have with most of these people. but its so bad right now that i can't even sit anywhere at lunch because people hate me (yay library). and i'm basically not in follies anymore. i had a pretty big part, but it was mysteriously given away because people (well a certain person) didn't want to deal with being near me. but at the same time, its completely understandable that she hates me. ughhh i dont know, its just dumb that people can't be mature enough to either talk to me about it, instead of behind my back, or just deal with me being in follies and act around it. its a great feeling when a group of people gets queit when you walk over, because you know they were just discussing various (and probably untrue) aspects of your personal life. i just wish that this problem could have stayed between the three people involved, and not the rest of the grade. people have no business spreading rumors about me. yes it was partly my fault, but it wasn't completly my fault and i'm upset that the other person involved has been completely forgiven. but thats the way this always works out.
i have a follies rehearsal in, like an hour. but really theres no point in me even showing up. i could easily not even go to the shows and nobody would care. woooooo.i CANNOT WAIT to leave for college in august. then i'll never have to see any of these people again until ten years from now at our high school reunion when they'll all be fat, unsuccessful soccer moms who still live in durham.