summer school sucks.
Hey journal... What's goin on? I haven't written in this thing in awhile. Things aren't going very good for me lately. Let's see what started it... um well me an justin were doin fine and stuff and me him, rach and lauren. and rach was just playing around at first. she's like " i get o meet justin b4 all o you " and i kinda was like hm ok.. lol.. and she kepttalking abot it. rofl i was getting steamed. she just basically said shit that made it out like it was totally out of the question that i wouldnt meet him anytime soon. she's like " i live like 4 hours away, it's not like he'd actually drive 20 hours to see you. thats too much " something along those lines.shit like that. lol and i asked a few ppl if they' be upset the way she said all the stuff and they were like um. i'd be PISSED. so yeah i tried talking to justin about it. and he woud curse at me for nofucking reason.. and i was like all calm n shit and i'm like why do u tell me t shut up when i'm tryin to talk to u about things. an hes like.. " i tell u to shut up bc i can " omg i got steamed when he said that. so he basically just made me feel lke shit. he doesn't care about nethingi have to say...
He can yell and give me shit and say if i meet justin skyler that he won't ever be with me . and shit like that. yet he can go meet rachel? it's bullshit. he's so controlling and i fuking love him like so much i can't even describe what i feel for him and his is the only thing thats keeping me around. is the fact that i dunno wtf i'd do if i didn't have him. but ya know what. if it comes down to it. i'll leave bc i'm not going to put up with his shit. everyone thinks i always bitch at him and shit i don't tell everyone how he treats me. it's crap i tell you:o
so i started crying bc i'm a pussy when it comes to ppli care about. i was upset the day b4 bc my best friend felt hurt that i was like acting different n stuf around other ppl and she like basically said she didn't care. but yesterday i guess we pt it past us and she helpedme wit what i was going through. well after the fact.. i popped 20 pills and i tried some other shit.. i dunno i don't really wanna write all of that. but ilove this boy so much. he means the world to me and i wish he'd treat me better. he's too stubborn and has to have everything his way. i can't stand it. :\ bleh.. neways. so me and danni talked last niht and it was good.and thennnnnthe pills started taking place in my system. i was supposeto go shoping with my mom ad to the olive garden. but i had passed out and i was so week. i was going to through up and i still feel that wy right now. but ill get ovr it...
I went to 2 periods today and i went tanning...
so yeah. theres my update.
laters.
He can yell and give me shit and say if i meet justin skyler that he won't ever be with me . and shit like that. yet he can go meet rachel? it's bullshit. he's so controlling and i fuking love him like so much i can't even describe what i feel for him and his is the only thing thats keeping me around. is the fact that i dunno wtf i'd do if i didn't have him. but ya know what. if it comes down to it. i'll leave bc i'm not going to put up with his shit. everyone thinks i always bitch at him and shit i don't tell everyone how he treats me. it's crap i tell you:o
so i started crying bc i'm a pussy when it comes to ppli care about. i was upset the day b4 bc my best friend felt hurt that i was like acting different n stuf around other ppl and she like basically said she didn't care. but yesterday i guess we pt it past us and she helpedme wit what i was going through. well after the fact.. i popped 20 pills and i tried some other shit.. i dunno i don't really wanna write all of that. but ilove this boy so much. he means the world to me and i wish he'd treat me better. he's too stubborn and has to have everything his way. i can't stand it. :\ bleh.. neways. so me and danni talked last niht and it was good.and thennnnnthe pills started taking place in my system. i was supposeto go shoping with my mom ad to the olive garden. but i had passed out and i was so week. i was going to through up and i still feel that wy right now. but ill get ovr it...
I went to 2 periods today and i went tanning...
so yeah. theres my update.
laters.