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why am i so gullable why am i sucked into things so easily i let myself believe that hemi genuinely wanted me but i dont think he did i think it was cos he was upset and i was there so we kissed im so scared lj readers i dunno what to do theres so many bad things going down! why do i have to do this to myself i think im too soft! tonight i tried to get hemi to face his problems head on cos he keeps running away from them like me he wants us to be mates but why cant he just tell me whats really going on! why wont he let me in! i wanna know why hes so troubled but he wont let me i dont think we can be friends weve gone through too much been together for too long and im pretty much sure were in love with each other he told me that i was selfish and i dont wanna believe it but its true im the cause of all his problems! and i didnt wanna believe it but people have told me enough now for me to know i was a big factor to him trying to kill himself. i hate myself so much i can barely look at myself in the mirror i take a quick glance sudder and then leave the house i think thats unhealthy. i tell hemi to face his problems head on but i dont think i even do that myself the saying is true you are your own biggest critic cos all we do is judge ourselves maybe i need to get away for a little while im so scared that the day when death comes knocking on my door is soon i feel that it may be tonight

so if it is livejournal readers goodbye

luv ya hemi always will!