telling you about life
hello i have finished my letter this is how it starts
im sorry to everyone i ever hurt or who ever loved me.
the reason i made this decision is because i cant take life anymore it just has no enjoyment.... no joy..... just loneliness (i have felt like this for a while now) this isnt anyones fault its my problem its my problem and i dont feel that i can fix it so today i say my goodbye!
i know that its stupid but i just know that its gonna happen soon the day is going to come and there arent going to be many people who care i just wish i could find some enjoyment in life it just hasnt had it for around 3 months now i just dont feel like the same Tarn im trying to be the happy, bubbly immature Tarn im just acting though i have matured since last year and i dont think i really know who i am? am i Tarn flirty but not happy? am i Tarn happy immature and bubbly? or am i just Tarn the depressed girl who got dumped and the guy already has moved on! Hemi goes out with Danielle now i think its kool its just gonna be weird to see him with someone else i think im gonna ask Cameron out iv been meaning to for a while now but im scared its too soon to be with someone and what if he dont like me.... i feel like isolating myself at the moment i think my mum is worried about me cos i havent been home on time lately simply cos i need time away to be by myself and find me again.
none of my mates are at school so like im a loner and i cant hang out with the boys anymore cos i dont wanna be around hemi and he dont wanna be around me hemi is annoying me hes saying that he wanna be mates and he still loves me and then hes telling other people he hates me and when i talk to him or hug him i just wanna know man cos i dunno how to feel aye cos i love him but i dont like the way he acts now and stuff i guess i dont really like the new Hemi and i dunno what to make of him aye but he doesnt get to me anymore just the rest of the world does i have no friends well chick friends not many anyway there are so many things that im just not satisfied with.... but yea i just wanna say that i love everyone!!!!! and im gonna try to keep smiling :)
bubi
im sorry to everyone i ever hurt or who ever loved me.
the reason i made this decision is because i cant take life anymore it just has no enjoyment.... no joy..... just loneliness (i have felt like this for a while now) this isnt anyones fault its my problem its my problem and i dont feel that i can fix it so today i say my goodbye!
i know that its stupid but i just know that its gonna happen soon the day is going to come and there arent going to be many people who care i just wish i could find some enjoyment in life it just hasnt had it for around 3 months now i just dont feel like the same Tarn im trying to be the happy, bubbly immature Tarn im just acting though i have matured since last year and i dont think i really know who i am? am i Tarn flirty but not happy? am i Tarn happy immature and bubbly? or am i just Tarn the depressed girl who got dumped and the guy already has moved on! Hemi goes out with Danielle now i think its kool its just gonna be weird to see him with someone else i think im gonna ask Cameron out iv been meaning to for a while now but im scared its too soon to be with someone and what if he dont like me.... i feel like isolating myself at the moment i think my mum is worried about me cos i havent been home on time lately simply cos i need time away to be by myself and find me again.
none of my mates are at school so like im a loner and i cant hang out with the boys anymore cos i dont wanna be around hemi and he dont wanna be around me hemi is annoying me hes saying that he wanna be mates and he still loves me and then hes telling other people he hates me and when i talk to him or hug him i just wanna know man cos i dunno how to feel aye cos i love him but i dont like the way he acts now and stuff i guess i dont really like the new Hemi and i dunno what to make of him aye but he doesnt get to me anymore just the rest of the world does i have no friends well chick friends not many anyway there are so many things that im just not satisfied with.... but yea i just wanna say that i love everyone!!!!! and im gonna try to keep smiling :)
bubi