*insert loud Traci scream here*
Ok so I don't even know where to start with this post. I started at 9:33 and it's now 10:51 and this is as far as I've gotten. Partly because I am busy but mostly because I just can't think of how to start. I get started and then erase everything. Things are just so crappy for me lately. I thought that getting out on my own and stuff was going to be so great. Which it is. But I just can't seem to manage my money to save my freakin life! Now here comes Christmas. And it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have 20 freakin people to buy for. And that's not even including my friends. That's just family. That is the only downside to having a big family. Too many birthdays and too many people to buy for at Christmas time. It's like once I get my money right...something comes along and fucks it up. UGH! It's annoying.
Then there's the situation with stupid guys. I think I need to leave them all alone and just think about myself from here on out. They do nothing but stress me out. I'm not talking about my guy friends. They're all great! I'm still talking to my EX like an idiot. That just does nothing but cause problems but I can't seem to let his stupid ass go. I wish I could. I am sure I could if I just put my mind to it but I love that boy so much it's sickening! There is this guy that I met at a restaraunt (he waited on us) and it's like he WAS into me but then all of a sudden he's not. I'm like whatever! Then there's this one that I've known for a while. We dated a while back. Then we started talking again and we hung out one night and we talked for a while after that and it's just weird. I don't know. I just need to say fuck all men that I am interested in. Maybe I'll become a lesbian.
I'm just extra fuckin irritated lately.
Then there's the situation with stupid guys. I think I need to leave them all alone and just think about myself from here on out. They do nothing but stress me out. I'm not talking about my guy friends. They're all great! I'm still talking to my EX like an idiot. That just does nothing but cause problems but I can't seem to let his stupid ass go. I wish I could. I am sure I could if I just put my mind to it but I love that boy so much it's sickening! There is this guy that I met at a restaraunt (he waited on us) and it's like he WAS into me but then all of a sudden he's not. I'm like whatever! Then there's this one that I've known for a while. We dated a while back. Then we started talking again and we hung out one night and we talked for a while after that and it's just weird. I don't know. I just need to say fuck all men that I am interested in. Maybe I'll become a lesbian.
I'm just extra fuckin irritated lately.