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this week=crappy

idk. i cant even begin to explain how much ive felt like poo latley
and my dream last night didnt help any of this
ive realized that i give up on alot of things
like if things get to hard or are to confusing
.. i just give up
but like the one thing i really think that i should just let go
or give up on, is the one thing that im not
i just dont understand that

i make alot of mistakes.
like trusting people
i mean its not that big of deal,
but for once i thought i could trust someone
and then of course they have to prove me wrong
i dont think that wen i tell someone something
that is obviously personal, that i have to say
ohh btw keep this between me n you
.. i think that would just be a given
but maybe im wrong
i let myself do alot of stupid stuff.
and i wish i could be one of those ppl that make mistakes
but still have no regrets
and i always try n tell myself that they are no mistakes
just things we do, and things we dont do
but if i regret those things that i do, then that would make it a mistake
.. i think
but i regret bout 98% of the things ive done/told ppl in the last week or two

zack left for the army yesterday.
it was really sad,
hes gonna write me a letter bout the underwear
i cant even imagine how upset i would be
if me n aaron were still together wen he left
for the air force.
its crazy
tempest is moving away.
i wish i would of hung out with her more
considering she lives down the street
poo

i wish i had some sort of plans for the day
instead of just sittin here
ohh well