My ear itches so bad.
what am I doing with my life? I have no freaking idea... I swear I just go on a day to day basis and hope for the best and just nothing bad happen, well at least nothing too bad. and it's weird the plans I do make are ones that usually don't come through or ones that I just have mixed feelings for and I don't really understand why. I worry and worry constantly... and the only times I actually feel like I escape or ones where I have really good friends taking me places and telling me to forget... but as soon as they go away I'm just like well wtf do I do now? then I worry some more. it's to the point where it's relaly pissing me off and I'm sick and tired of it. I want to explode and hear the fucking truth for once. like I'm dying for it. dying. and it kills me even more when I ask and all I get is "calm down". fuck it. I need to keep moving from day to day... and I'll begin to realize there's alot of world out there for me if I just open my eyes and take a chance.