I'm back
I just got done spending the weekend with hyperhowie. He cam up on Thursday from LA and we spend the weekend doing all the tourist stuff in Seattle. I think I need a vacation from my vacation. Luckily I am taking a week off from work for my birthday in a couple weeks and my only plans are to chill.
It's going to be weird to sleep alone tonight since Howie decided to sleep in my bed with me instead of on the futon or air mattress. Strange right it felt to have someone else in bed with me when I haven't slept with anyone like that in years. It was also nice to cuddle with someone again! I think I will be working on my issues and confidence so that can actually feel like I am worth something. Once I like myself more and get out of this rut maybe I can find a guy to share my life with.
This weekend has made me remember what it is like to cuddle with a guy. Haven't done that since the last time Cody and I hung out over a year ago. Also I think spending this much time with Howie has done a lot to bring the 'idea of Howie' into better focus and allow me to let go of that tiny bit of me that refused to stop wanting to get back together with him. It is most deffinately time to move on from that fantasy. He will always be a part of my life and I will always love him but no longer want to be with him.
Funny how today I say goodbye to one ex and the second I get home from the airport I start chating with Cody on facebook. Found out he is into Star Trek... just goes to show that we never really got to know eachother very well over the years we have gotten together, I think our relationship was almost toally ruled by hormones and a weird intense attraction that i haven't felt with anyone else, but it kind of blinded us to other things. We may hang out on my week off from work and geek out to some remastered old school Star Trek. It would be nice to have another Star Trek geek to hang out with.
Well I'm off to go eat something and chill.
It's going to be weird to sleep alone tonight since Howie decided to sleep in my bed with me instead of on the futon or air mattress. Strange right it felt to have someone else in bed with me when I haven't slept with anyone like that in years. It was also nice to cuddle with someone again! I think I will be working on my issues and confidence so that can actually feel like I am worth something. Once I like myself more and get out of this rut maybe I can find a guy to share my life with.
This weekend has made me remember what it is like to cuddle with a guy. Haven't done that since the last time Cody and I hung out over a year ago. Also I think spending this much time with Howie has done a lot to bring the 'idea of Howie' into better focus and allow me to let go of that tiny bit of me that refused to stop wanting to get back together with him. It is most deffinately time to move on from that fantasy. He will always be a part of my life and I will always love him but no longer want to be with him.
Funny how today I say goodbye to one ex and the second I get home from the airport I start chating with Cody on facebook. Found out he is into Star Trek... just goes to show that we never really got to know eachother very well over the years we have gotten together, I think our relationship was almost toally ruled by hormones and a weird intense attraction that i haven't felt with anyone else, but it kind of blinded us to other things. We may hang out on my week off from work and geek out to some remastered old school Star Trek. It would be nice to have another Star Trek geek to hang out with.
Well I'm off to go eat something and chill.