Why me?

[cutenloveable17]

Sometimes I just don't get it. I'm tired of all of this shit. I'm sittin here bawling my eyes out because my best friend just said " I don't even see how we can be friends if we act like this." WTF?!?! That doesn't make me feel too good. How am I supposed to take this? She also suggested us not talkin for a few days before she made that comment. Whatev. I guess I won't talk or see her till we both have to work on Sat. Should be fun. Why does this shit always happen to me? It all started because it made me upset/hurt that she ditched me for a boy she's only kicked it w/ about 6 times. We made plans to just kick it and she said that it wasn't official but it sooo was and then I called her when I got home from my classes and she made plans w/ someone else. She called me after she got home and of course I was pissed off and she noticed and asked me what was wrong. Told her I didn't want to talk about it because we'd just argue and she insisted on me telling her so I did and of course what did we do??? We argued. She apologized like 20 million times but saying sorry doesn't really mean much to me anymore. That's all I've heard my whole life. Anyone ever get sick of hearing that word? Does saying sorry really make anyone feel better about the whole situation? I hate the fact that I'm crying about all of this. I got online to see who was on...no one was really on. Not even Chuck. The main person I wanted/needed to talk to. I really don't just want/need to talk to him, I need him to hold me and run his fingers thru my hair and tell me everythings going to be okay and wipe my tears away. ::sigh:: I'm a girl what can ya expect...I need stuff like that sometimes. I don't want it very often. Today just happens to be a exception, a big exception!!

Fuck this. I'm done complaining about all of this. So I guess, Until next time...