....and when it rains,it pours
you could guess this isnt a happy post. to be perfectly honest i havent been quite happy in sometime now. things could be worse, although at the moment it doesnt really seem that way. not only do i not have a job anymore but i also dont have a car!. arg. today around 4pm i was driving home from meijers and my tired self not paying attention hit the car in front of me at a stop light. not sure how it happened either which really pisses me off. i dont know if my brain just shut off because i have no recolection of why i was unable to find the brake pedal but regardless it sure screwed me over. to top it off the car i hit was a jeep which had no damage at all. lucky for them. as for me i got a ticket and a 500 dollar deductable that must be paid before i can pick up my car.. i know i really shouldnt be complaning because life could be much worse, but seriouslyyyyy when the hell are things going to be lookign up!? i know this was all brought about from my stupid self being stubborn. as always. not exactly wanting to live for god but in a way deciding that i need to get back my old self. i sound rediculous im sure. i have a theory that all these bad things are only happening beacause i havent been putting god first in my life. im trying i really am. going to church doesnt nothing for me anymore, its a bit sad. i dont know if god just decided to take a step back and see how much i actually will pursue him, but really im struggling. i read the bible feel nothing, dont understand it. hopefully i have a breakthrough soon, because im going insane.
james cyrus called tonight, hes coming home from indiana tomorrow night to visit friends and family for his birthday. im actually really excited to see him. seems like hes been away forever but in reality its only been a week and a half. hehe
i might have a rental car tomorrow morning, im crossing my fingers that my credit card will come in so i can put the 200 dollar deductable on that. i guess they use the 200 dollars just to insure that i will return the car at the end of the week. seems silly to me but whatever.
my grandma just went into a nursing home last week and i guess isnt doing so hot. i feel really bad for her. my family visits her every day, and me being the lazy one hasnt seen her in four days. i doubt she'll even remember me now. :(
i guess thats all for now.
my life is so boring these days, i should really try and spicen things up a bit. haha
xoxo michelle
james cyrus called tonight, hes coming home from indiana tomorrow night to visit friends and family for his birthday. im actually really excited to see him. seems like hes been away forever but in reality its only been a week and a half. hehe
i might have a rental car tomorrow morning, im crossing my fingers that my credit card will come in so i can put the 200 dollar deductable on that. i guess they use the 200 dollars just to insure that i will return the car at the end of the week. seems silly to me but whatever.
my grandma just went into a nursing home last week and i guess isnt doing so hot. i feel really bad for her. my family visits her every day, and me being the lazy one hasnt seen her in four days. i doubt she'll even remember me now. :(
i guess thats all for now.
my life is so boring these days, i should really try and spicen things up a bit. haha
xoxo michelle