my head hurts

[cutemcow1227]

so confused. I kind of wish I was back six months ago. i was uncertian about a job or the direction my life was going but I felt so much more sure of myself. I feel as if I was practically still a kid then I have grown so much. So much growing has gone on in the past two and a half weeks that it leaves me alittle scared and drained and emotionally raw. i sound miserable and I am not. it is exciting and exhilirating and I am discovering all of this with someone who is absoultly amazing. Thats is also part of it. i know there will always be a bond there, as i am able to get to him in ways that he gets to me. it is really confusing and also what has my mind all jumbled. i know hes going to read this and i jsut want him to know, yes my mind is jumbled, but whose wouldnt be? this is the msot amazing thing I have ever experinced and to be sharng it with you makes it that much more special. yes I have been a little scared and a little freaked out but that is all part of learning. i apologoze for any stipid things i say or freak out about i am a little on edge now even a few hours later. and jsut to let you know cuddling tonight was great. i have not felt that content and relaxed in a long time. for once everything in my world was good and jsut about perfect.
my head hurts. im going to bed