Are you Happy you Fuckin X !!!!
I love Mitch Headburg........hummm I wonder if that how you spell his name....Oh well.
So its sunday afternoon, and im at Hope college with Danielle or Dani, as some of you may know her by. Funny thing actually, last night i called her Dani...and we were both like...WHAT THE HELLL!!!! lol guess you had to be there.
Any ways...Danielle is still sleeping in her room and im down at the computer lab. Staving. But hey, i have some pretzels and some Mountain Dew. Ill live. I think im gonna atleast stay till dinner, cuz i wanna eat here. I've just gotta find someone whos not using their card.
So my life has been pretty crazy lately. And kinda crappy at times. I really dont know what to do anymore.
I mean, girls fight over and about guys but...I never thought i would lose a friend for a guy. I thought i was better than that.
Nates great. We get along, we have a lot in common, we always have fun when we hang out and i never feel uncomfortable around him. He seems like a wonderful guy and I could really see this going some where...but is all that enough compared to the things ill lose.
A great friend of about a year and a half, the funniest person ive ever met, someone who i look up to so much, someone who will give me HONEST advise about making a huge change like moving back home from Wisconsin, someone who always made my day just that little tad brighter.
But all that doesnt even matter. Ive already lost her...and YES its all my fault and YES I messed up, and YES I was an idiot, and YES Im sorry. I truely
am. Im not sure what it thought would happen, which is kinda stupid of me. But now she will NEVER forgive me for what I did, and she will ALWAYS hold a grudge, and even if we become friends again, it will never be the same and we will never be that close.
I fucked up. And i dont know what to do about it. I know I did wrong, and its COMPLETELY my fault.
But now theres no way i could please everyone.
* If I keep talking to Nate, we will be happy but Kate will still hate me.
* If I stop talking to Nate to please Kate, I dont know what will happen. Either she will start talking to me, but it still wouldnt be the same AT ALL. OR She still wouldnt talk to me.
* If I stop talking to EVERYONE compleatly, Ill hurt Nate, and Kate will still hate me.
Its a lose, lose situation.
I dont know what to do.