Change is good... I think
I guess I should let everyone know that last Saturday Conrad and I broke up. For good this time. We've only talked once, maybe twice since last Saturday. So needless to say, I haven't been the happiest girl in the world recently. Saturday and Sunday were devoted to crying and not eating. Even though it was really me that did the breaking up, I still feel horrible about it. I still love him incredibly. He's awesome. He's so much fun to hang out with. We get along really well and I don't have very many people I can say that about. The reason why I decided to break up was simple. We have different goals in life. He would prefer to stay with the job he works for now in Lynchburg, live there, stay friends with people from high school and never leave the area. Me, on the other hand, well... I can't stay in that area for the rest of my life. I just can't. It's not me. Also, I am (or was) completely ready to move on to the next level (aka get engaged and start planning a wedding). Conrad is definitely not ready for that yet. I always bugged him about getting me a ring (half joking, half serious) and every time he was like, "stop talking about it!" He never wanted to talk about settling down. People keep telling me, "You're too young. Don't worry about getting married right now." But I'm so sick of dating around. I just want that security knowing that I'm with the one I'll be with for the rest of my life. I thought I had that. But Conrad and I are just in two different places right now. But it's all okay now. I know that things happen for a reason and everything will work out eventually. The hardest part might be going back to school and seeing him every day for cheering. But I know it'll be okay. It will. It'll be fine. Anyway, it's a nice day outside, my pool is clean and I want to chill and tan. So I'll leave you now. Jenni - I can't wait to see you tomorrow! :-)
~Christie~
~Christie~