It's not long from now...
...that I'm gonna be wrapped up in those loving arms." n I oh so cant wait!!
For the past few days, my smile goes from ear to ear and I cant seem to make it go away... not that I want to, but even if I tried, it won't go. It takes me a while to get to sleep at night cuz I stay up smiling about the day he comes home n about spendin time when he comes home, then starting all the plans we got. I cant wait for all of it to happen. Just thinking about it is making me soo excited right now, Im tryin to keep my mind from racing a hundred miles per hour right now lol
I don't know what hes done to me and I really do not know why... I dont care how or why... Im just glad!! And I am sooo happy with him. I havent eva felt like this for anyone. Even when I thought I loved someone n waited for three years for them; this is way friggin beyond that; that is nothing compared to this!! I jus laugh at that now lol I was in a long relationship once, n it was nice n fun at times... but compared to this... thats nuthin eitha!! This is real. This I can feel into my soul. It reaches so deep into my soul, it reaches far beyond what my heart eva knew, and captivates my mind. He's the best thing that has happened to me eva. He treats me betta than anyone eva has before. I see how he tries to please me n make me happy; n I appreciate it all. He listens to me and talks things out. If I have a problem, he doesnt judge me, but tries to understand it n then talks it out with me. He tries soo hard to make feel betta if Im upset or feeling down. He eases my mind when Im stressed out. He indulges in my happiness when I have it. He surprises me with the cutest things all the time. He is kind and gentle. Sweet and caring. He is sooo romantic... I LOOOOVE!!!! that in a guy!! Im almost fairy tale romantic, so I have a huge imagination when it comes to that stuff... so its nice to be with someone who is close to it lol He has made a lot of my dreams come true and still is making my dreams come true! He supports me in my decisions when I come to him with them... If he doesnt like it, he'll try and talk to me about it and show me a different perspective. He doesnt try and compete with me or make himself look betta if I did something... I delt with that before, it was an aweful self esteem destroyer. I can feel how much he loves me with a single gentle touch... I can feel the passion in his kiss. I can hear the depth of his love in his sexy voice. I see into his heart through his sweet soft eyes. (my favorite eye color; brown!! I LOVE his eyes!! I melt when I look into them or just see them... hehe)
Its jus so nice to be with him. I am soo glad everything in my life went the way it did. I do not regret a thing in my past, at all!! And Im glad he kept be persistant about me too!! Otherwise, if he gave up, we wouldnt be together... Im glad I gave him a chance. And at first we both thought, eh, if it doesnt work, atleast it was fun. And I still remember to this day, that first day we hung out, he gave me "that look" lol Its imprinted in my head, I still see it even afta not seein him for 5 months lol and I didnt know at the time what it was... and I kept seein him give me "that look" every so often... then just before he told me he loves me, he did it too. And when I didnt say it back that night, he gave me this very dissappointin look that I hope I dont eva see again. But then I saw the most look of surprise on his face when I told him I love him, I saw his eyes like bug outta his head, it was funny n cute at the same time!! hehe He actually couldnt believe I said it and afta I said it there was a moment of silence, and then he shakes his head as if to wake himself up n then says to me, "what??" haha And I said it again and I could jus see how happy he was that I "caught up to him" haha A little slow, but I got there hunnie ;) Ohhhhh and am I glad!!! A bad stormy night turned out to be one of the most wonderful ones. How sweet lol But anyways...
So it was an awesome night. And I jus cant wait for him to come home. gosh, I miss him!! Only about 23 more days left... from the initional day he left, but he told me a day hes suppose to come back, but its not official yet... but thats what theyre goin for. And if it is then its like 3 or 4 days more... wtf... I hope its earlier... but Im not countin on it. I jus want him home. Wow, not long from now. Im sooo excited. I got a few surprises for him for when he comes home. Theyre little things, nothing major. And I cleaned out my room too. Im gettin rid of the boxes I have packed n puttin them in mums room for now. And Im jus gonna try n get rid of some more stuff. Im gonna have to share all my things... ewww... Ive always had my own stuff n now I gotta share, wtf .... LOL Im jus kiddin lol Seriously. I wa sjus bein a brat... hehe nah, I dont mind at all. If it means spendin time with my babe, Ill share all I got, hell, Ill jus give it all to him. hehe Yep, hes got me. All of me; mind, body heart n soul.
Im sooo tired. Since I was up til 2-2:30 am last night... lol And then up at 7:30am. classes n worked all day. And Im still up. I feel dizzy n Im soooo thirsty right now, omgosh lol
Well Im gonna get to bed. I have some stuff to do for tomorrow.
so night night for now and Ill update again. And Rob, I think you should throw an update on there, I wanna read some (: I always go checkin to see if maybe you did lol I miss you hunnie. Email me!! And I cant wait to talk to you tomorrow (Saturday)!!
All Yours Baby,
~Katie