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idk. I never felt like this before. im so stressed out... emotionally and physically
basically my grampa is dieing and it is at the point where i want him to die only becuase he is suffering so bad. like he knows who you are and can talk to you a little but yet he is in the ICU or whatever becuase he is dieing inside, as in all his organs are shutting down. And i dont know how to react to this becuase no one has every died so close to me before. and idk what to do.. i dont tell anyone becuase i cant talk about it because ill just break down
then there is school which is homework after homework and i am getting so worn down becuase guess what the only thing i am doin is? FUCKING HOMEWORK
then there is track. i love track-- running like gets you free from all that. but im so stressed out that every little thing is bothering me like idk. i cant even have fun with it anymore becasue im like, like i never been before.
everything is just so sucky. its like at school im ok and everything like im fine im like normal. then school ends and my mind comes back to the stuff thats goin on in my life.
i feel like im falling apart and idk why.
basically my grampa is dieing and it is at the point where i want him to die only becuase he is suffering so bad. like he knows who you are and can talk to you a little but yet he is in the ICU or whatever becuase he is dieing inside, as in all his organs are shutting down. And i dont know how to react to this becuase no one has every died so close to me before. and idk what to do.. i dont tell anyone becuase i cant talk about it because ill just break down
then there is school which is homework after homework and i am getting so worn down becuase guess what the only thing i am doin is? FUCKING HOMEWORK
then there is track. i love track-- running like gets you free from all that. but im so stressed out that every little thing is bothering me like idk. i cant even have fun with it anymore becasue im like, like i never been before.
everything is just so sucky. its like at school im ok and everything like im fine im like normal. then school ends and my mind comes back to the stuff thats goin on in my life.
i feel like im falling apart and idk why.