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I hate thinkin that i have best fiends! B/c in real life i don't!! No matter who my best friend seems to b i get stabbed in my back!!The only best friend i have rite now is Cody!! i mean i thought Erica was my best friend but now she is talkin to Derek!!! A kid that i was talkin to!!! And she never calls me anymore b/c of him!!And chloe well she doesn't even call or text me or nuttin anymore!! And lee i never talk to her anymore!! And jess well Eric is her life!! None of them even no whats goin on with me AT ALL!! i tought that all these people would be there for me not matter what!! Well thats what they said!! But thats just like a female!! They will say that they will b there 4 u no matter what but they really won't!!This is the exact reason i hang out with guys more than girls!! Girls will stab u in ur back in a heart beat!!And i'm not saying that guys don't but damn they don't do it as much as girls!! And i'm a very forgiving person, so of course i just get kicked around over and over but i guess thats my fault b/c i let it happen!! I'm sick of gettin hurt!! Your best friends can hurt u just as bad as a guy can!! Sometimes even worse!!jess (j.z) i need u!!!! U were like the one friend i have had in my life that really has done anything wrong to me!!! I miss u sooo much!! I want things to go back to the way that they use to b!!! the only people i think i really need in my life are J.z, haweny, cody, and mike!! (and i mean lee i love u but ur there for me but not all the time like every now n then u r but u never told anybody anything i have ever told u!!And i love u soooo much for that) And the same thing goes to jess (schroeder)i love u but Eric is ur life u have no time for me!! i just want my old life back wen i wen to pompano middle n i din't have to deal with the drama bullshit like i do now!! I mean yea there was drama but not like high skool!! i'm sick of the bullshit!! Well i'm goin to bed!!