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Is it sad that I can't even really stand being alone anymore? 'Cause I'm afraid something is going to happen to someone else, and I'm not going to be there; I'm not going to know. And it kills me. And I hate it.
And now is not the time for some of this stuff. My thoughts are a scrambled mess, and I need help. Too bad I keep them to myself. Too bad I'm not going to do so hot this semester.
Too bad I miss my family and friends back home. And don't want to be here this weekend, but I don't have a choice anymore. Mom can't come up. I just want someone to be here, saying it's ok. A hug would be nice too. but that's not possible.
And I'm trying not to be a hypocrite. But apparently it's not working, cause my thoughts are still going along those lines. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
If only someone could rescue me from this wasteland I call my life, I would gladly appreciate it. If only I could talk to some people about it, but I can't. Because it's not the right thing to do. And I don't want to be that kind of person. Or that kind of girl.
I hope everyone's new year is going alright. or better than mine. I feel so lost, something I haven't felt in a long time. Something I forgot how to cope with.
And now is not the time for some of this stuff. My thoughts are a scrambled mess, and I need help. Too bad I keep them to myself. Too bad I'm not going to do so hot this semester.
Too bad I miss my family and friends back home. And don't want to be here this weekend, but I don't have a choice anymore. Mom can't come up. I just want someone to be here, saying it's ok. A hug would be nice too. but that's not possible.
And I'm trying not to be a hypocrite. But apparently it's not working, cause my thoughts are still going along those lines. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
If only someone could rescue me from this wasteland I call my life, I would gladly appreciate it. If only I could talk to some people about it, but I can't. Because it's not the right thing to do. And I don't want to be that kind of person. Or that kind of girl.
I hope everyone's new year is going alright. or better than mine. I feel so lost, something I haven't felt in a long time. Something I forgot how to cope with.