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You know that feeling you get..when you practice saying the right thing to him over and over and when it finally comes time to say it..you can`t. Like it`s the perfect timing to tell him you think he`s absolutly amazing and that you love him but your mouth seems to resit to cooperate with you heart. I hate it when my mind gets in the way.Right now i feel like a pathetic loser. And I`m in one of those, "let`s have a breakdown tonight" moods. I hate these kind of nights.
and as i sit at my computer deak writing my name and his and then Mrs.insert his last name here i feel like I`m wasting my time. But then I`ll wake up tomrrow and he`ll be online and I`ll think to myself yet again, "let`s IM him..maybe today will be better" But it won`t. I hate lying to myself. So now i have a massive headache from thinking about everything that is and what can be. So for tonight..I bid you farewell..and if you`re reading this.. I love you <3