fuck shit/
i dont know who i am anymore.
i cant cut as everyone close to me has found out.
atleast til fall comes around. cause im cutting in other places now.
i wish i was pretty.
i wish i was thin.
and i dont know what i want to do anymore.
heres me like a few days ago.
since last august i've lost 20 lbs. most say its amazing. i think its bullshit.
i need another 40 before im 90 and happy. so heres a list of things i will do
to hopefully make myself feel better by looking better
* lose atleast 15lbs. before the end of august.
* contacts
* clear skin
* chemically straighten my hair.
* have 2 emo guys my age move in to the 2 houses on my street
* actually have one (atleast) like me (soooo not going to happen.)
well im just going to sleep til 11 then swim the whole day away, pray for rain.
take a walk in the rain and cry while listening to my ipod.
take a shower while i blast music. crawl into pj's and sleep then repeat. adding walkinmg for like 1hr 30 min in.
later. oh and sorry for not posting and commenting i just havent had any energy to do so.
i cant cut as everyone close to me has found out.
atleast til fall comes around. cause im cutting in other places now.
i wish i was pretty.
i wish i was thin.
and i dont know what i want to do anymore.
heres me like a few days ago.
since last august i've lost 20 lbs. most say its amazing. i think its bullshit.
i need another 40 before im 90 and happy. so heres a list of things i will do
to hopefully make myself feel better by looking better
* lose atleast 15lbs. before the end of august.
* contacts
* clear skin
* chemically straighten my hair.
* have 2 emo guys my age move in to the 2 houses on my street
* actually have one (atleast) like me (soooo not going to happen.)
well im just going to sleep til 11 then swim the whole day away, pray for rain.
take a walk in the rain and cry while listening to my ipod.
take a shower while i blast music. crawl into pj's and sleep then repeat. adding walkinmg for like 1hr 30 min in.
later. oh and sorry for not posting and commenting i just havent had any energy to do so.