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I need to know. I need to know how she is. I need to know if she's cried like I have. If she has a song that she listens to after a break-up. If she's already met someone. If she has, is it who I think it is? I can't not look at her Facebook every day (fucking Facebook). I can't not snoop around. I need answers. I need closure. But I can't just ask or else I'll sound like THAT girl, THAT ex.
I know I'm not doing well. I know I've cried. I have my song. I can't even look at anyone else. It's like tunnel vision, what happens to your eye sight right before you pass out. That's how I am. Every day. Tunnel vision. Any moment, my knees buckle, and my head cracks against the ground. I'm starting to hope that happens soon.
Is the reason she dumped me really the reason? Or did she lie because she wanted someone else? Why do people lie to me?
I know I'm not doing well. I know I've cried. I have my song. I can't even look at anyone else. It's like tunnel vision, what happens to your eye sight right before you pass out. That's how I am. Every day. Tunnel vision. Any moment, my knees buckle, and my head cracks against the ground. I'm starting to hope that happens soon.
Is the reason she dumped me really the reason? Or did she lie because she wanted someone else? Why do people lie to me?