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hey guys,
what can i say. nothing to much going on here.but i am very pissed off. i have been tring to reach my friend for sometime now and i can't get a hold of her. she said she wasn't going to go out tomight but i thing she did with my other friends. i really don't know why they do this. so what i don't drink.... yet..... i made my mom and dad a promise and i'll be danmed if im going to brake it 3 months before my 21st. i just can't do that to them. not after what they had to go through with my brother and his "BIG" drinking problem. just can't di that. im supose to be the good one. so i am. i never said i like it. i just don't want to be a disappointment to them. and if i do drink i know i will be. but i have gone with them once to a friends house and i don't think they want me to go back. they think that i can't hadle myself. but they have no clue what i have been through with my brother. and all the fucking shit he put me through and my family. so i think i can handle myself just fine. i been around my brother all my life and his drinking started at 16 so i can hadle it just fucking fine. but it is funny that they don't want me around. i guess im not caal enough for them. well they need to fucking grow up this isn't high school anymore. i have tried everything to get them to hang out with me. the movies, shopping, just going for a walk. but if it don't envolve drinking they don't want to do it. or go somewhere after and drink. but they need to understand that it is not all about drinking i know first hand what drinking does to people and what the end reslt of it is and it is not a good one. but hey what do i know i just lost my grandfather to cancer from his drinking and smoking. so i don't know what im talking about. i never do so im just going to shut up and let them do it. it is just hard to see your friends let drinking mess with your life and friendships like this. now don't get me wrong i come from a drinking family. i know all about the good the bad and the ugly. but like i said it is just hard. i know im talking about one thing and this is a very touchy subject with me. and it all started with my brother. i wish i could explain but i can't. the one thing my brother put in my head was don't let people feel sorry for you. and don't let peple see you cry....... ok that was too, but i never got the cring one in my head. i guess you can say im hard headed wich i am. enough about that if i think about it anymore im going to say things i shouldn't
^_^ leslie
it can take a lifetime for someone to love you,
but it can also take a lifetime for you to love yourself.
what can i say. nothing to much going on here.but i am very pissed off. i have been tring to reach my friend for sometime now and i can't get a hold of her. she said she wasn't going to go out tomight but i thing she did with my other friends. i really don't know why they do this. so what i don't drink.... yet..... i made my mom and dad a promise and i'll be danmed if im going to brake it 3 months before my 21st. i just can't do that to them. not after what they had to go through with my brother and his "BIG" drinking problem. just can't di that. im supose to be the good one. so i am. i never said i like it. i just don't want to be a disappointment to them. and if i do drink i know i will be. but i have gone with them once to a friends house and i don't think they want me to go back. they think that i can't hadle myself. but they have no clue what i have been through with my brother. and all the fucking shit he put me through and my family. so i think i can handle myself just fine. i been around my brother all my life and his drinking started at 16 so i can hadle it just fucking fine. but it is funny that they don't want me around. i guess im not caal enough for them. well they need to fucking grow up this isn't high school anymore. i have tried everything to get them to hang out with me. the movies, shopping, just going for a walk. but if it don't envolve drinking they don't want to do it. or go somewhere after and drink. but they need to understand that it is not all about drinking i know first hand what drinking does to people and what the end reslt of it is and it is not a good one. but hey what do i know i just lost my grandfather to cancer from his drinking and smoking. so i don't know what im talking about. i never do so im just going to shut up and let them do it. it is just hard to see your friends let drinking mess with your life and friendships like this. now don't get me wrong i come from a drinking family. i know all about the good the bad and the ugly. but like i said it is just hard. i know im talking about one thing and this is a very touchy subject with me. and it all started with my brother. i wish i could explain but i can't. the one thing my brother put in my head was don't let people feel sorry for you. and don't let peple see you cry....... ok that was too, but i never got the cring one in my head. i guess you can say im hard headed wich i am. enough about that if i think about it anymore im going to say things i shouldn't
^_^ leslie
it can take a lifetime for someone to love you,
but it can also take a lifetime for you to love yourself.