not a good start....
hey guys i know i have not updated this thing in a while. well i have a really good reason. let me give you the run down on the year so far. januray was not that bad till the midle od the month when we found out how bad my grandfathers cancer really was. the thing you guys don't know is that he had three diffrent doctors telling us three diffrent things. well anyways, he stayed in the hospital and was on all this stuff and tubs to feed him and stuff like that. this was really hard for my brother. he was very close to our grandfather he was the midle grandchild and the only boy that lives in florida. and me, well im the baby of the faimly. but i have never saw my brother just so shocked and just out of it. he was the one always telling me it was going to be ok and holding me. and now there i was holding him and saying it was going to be ok. well feburary was still not good our grandfarther was getting wrose and i had a lot of things on my mind.... like the what if's and the he will nevers..... well vantines day came and when i and i was at my grandfathers side and that was the last time i saw in alive. he passed away on feburay 20th. and my brother was just cryoing so hard. i had no clue what to do. so i did the only thing i could think of and i just held him. my grandmother was given a flag and they had a 12 gun salute at t he funral. well march is here and you might me asking how i am doing after all this... well to tell you the truth im not ok but im better then i was. i don't like to talk about it much. all i can say is that he got to see my brother fall in love get marrired and have 2 wonderful hansom boys. and he will never see me do any of that. and im ok with yhat becuase i know he is in a better place.
but on a happer note. i have a new job and it pays ok. 150 a week. and a baby sit. it is fun heis only 8 noths old so it is not that hard. im getting very excited my birth day is in like 3 months and my brother wants to take me out but i don't know what that yet. we might share the same birthdate but i don't want t o share my first drinking experince with him. don't get me wrong i love my brother but lets just say he has a drinking problem but hey i have bveen dealing with that for years. and lets just say when push comes to shouve . it gets bad. so if you are thinking what you are think yes he hits me and he still does so im use to it but anyways.....
if you don't know by now i write alot when im upset or happy or whatever.
but im not going to put one on herre today i just can't find one that really goes with my mood.........
^_^ Leslie
but on a happer note. i have a new job and it pays ok. 150 a week. and a baby sit. it is fun heis only 8 noths old so it is not that hard. im getting very excited my birth day is in like 3 months and my brother wants to take me out but i don't know what that yet. we might share the same birthdate but i don't want t o share my first drinking experince with him. don't get me wrong i love my brother but lets just say he has a drinking problem but hey i have bveen dealing with that for years. and lets just say when push comes to shouve . it gets bad. so if you are thinking what you are think yes he hits me and he still does so im use to it but anyways.....
if you don't know by now i write alot when im upset or happy or whatever.
but im not going to put one on herre today i just can't find one that really goes with my mood.........
^_^ Leslie