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[cute_good_girl]

well everyone in in mrs. n'z 1st class and were havin free period! thank god im listening to music and lookin at stuff.Got sam on my mind.Hes going out with a girl named amber now.I cant believe he replaced me in like 5 days.first hes all like im not gnna have a new relationship for a while...i dont wanna move on i love you! and now hes all like amber this and that and "Were still friends". I know everyone thinks its none of my concern anymore because I broke up with him but ERR it just makes me mad that he lied to me and now is going back on what he said. I love him ....i just cant be with him. Dont get me wrong...I love RJ right to death..and now im sure I made the right choice cause sam moved on realy quick.It just hurts me to know sams not even fighting for me ....I shoulda known he wouldnt tho.But he had enuff with me and well hope hes happy now. I knew his life would be better without me thats why i left.Everyone thinks i left for Rj and well thats not true...I was gnna leave whether or not RJ was in my life.He just happened to be around at the point in time.Sam can feel all he wants to ...98 %% of me wants to not talk to him for a while...cuz it hurts soo much but i just cant seem to do it..i miss him 2 much..it kills me not knowin if hes okay. I hurt more then he does and Im the one that left..that says alot to me.It drives me insane cuz sam thinks RJ is better then him and thats not the truth. Rj is just sumome new..sumthin unfamiliar.RJ will tell me if hes mad at me..he wont pretend like hes not just to keep from hurting my feelings..hes honesty about it and i love that..me n rj argue all the time! its actually kinda funny since we havent been dating that long. ERR anyways....sam if u read this..i love you..im sorry i let u go BUT UR BETTER OFF! and now i know its true cuz u askd out amber and shes smart and said yet..so congratz and maybe now you can be happy..cuz u really werent with me.Hope everyone gets the better end of the deal this time...and well me..im used to feeling hurt so its okay..im just me..im used to be depressed.But know im keeping my promise..im here..im never letting go and ill always love you...yes i love RJ of course i do.but i will never love another as i did with u..again..just different.Well i feel horrible and just omg i really gotta go so l8erz
~*Misti*~Rose*~