changes
well it seems everyone goes through changes and it seems that it has come my time to change...over the last few weeks ive come to realize im changing..not sure if its for the better or for the worse but i guess time will tell...ive noticed that i speak my mind alot more and that i dont really care what people think of me, whether or not speaking my mind constitutes as me being a bitch or whatever, ive also come to realize that im pretty outgoing when i wanna be but also very very shy when im around people i dont know...that and ive also come to conclude that im not as strong of a person that i once was which is sorta depressing...that and i also dont like to let people too close to me, i dont like it when people know whats going on in my head or what im really thinking ive become pretty closed about that kinda stuff..lately my life has basically been school then work and on weekends work then bries or chillin with siman so ive been so busy i dont even have time to really think..let alone time enough for a relationship....silly jay thinking it could work lol i'm really gunna miss shannon when shes gone, i wish i hadda had more time to spend with her before she leaves but due to work thats not gunna happen....oh i had my piano lesson yesterday it was soo good to play piano again and to think she gave me more homework than all my other classes combined thats really kinda sad lol anyhow im done this sorta depressing update but really its not depressing because im getting the stuff done that i need to and im building more skills that im gunna need in the future like how to say no to people and learning that i cant please everyone no matter how much i try and want to the only person i can fully please is me..for once in my life im happy with the way my life is going its rather calming lol so audios