i'm sick of thinking that i'll never be good enough...
Fucking hell
I really hate my dad sometimes
I had a soccer practice tonight
&he drove me there
&for some fucked up reason
he decided to stay for the whole fucking thing!
So anyways,
we ran 2 laps around Dakota
but I thought we were only gonna do 1
so of course I went all out
only to find out we were doing another one
ended up being in the back of the group with Dani
&my dad is standing there when we got back
and he was all like
"KEL! How come you were in the back?"
so I just glared at him and didn't say anything
and he's like
"Do you think it has to do with sitting around all summer?"
again I glared at him then yelled "Maybe"
&he had the fucking nerve to LAUGH!
That's right, he thought it was fucking funny!
Kay,
So THEN
we were shooting,
I tried to shoot with my left foot (bad idea)
&I missed
So my dad goes
"Kel! What was that??"
That REALLY pissed me off so I screamed
"THAT WAS MY LEFT! GO HOME YOU'RE NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE HERE"
And that shut him up.
Like FUCK
Leave me alone.
Clearly I know that was a bad shot
you don't have to make me feel like an idiot.
He always does this to me
I hate it
He makes me feel useless
&then I get down on myself
which makes me worse
so then I get depressed
&my coach decides to give me one of his "talks"
and it just fucking pisses me off!
No wonder I'm such an angry person