Here we go again. It's a vicious cycle
So I've managed to get myself into something of a predicament....again. The thing is, after I left you, the feelings didn't go away, and I thought it'd be ok cuz you had a new b/f and what not, so ya know I just put it in the back of my mind. and apparently, you had other plans for yours. Because here they are back again. And right in the middle of a prior problem. I was just coming out of a major fight with heath, and the thing with Alaina, and look what happens. All I want in life is to be happy. And I just can't seem to make it work. I know not everything works out, but it seems as though nothing ever does for me. I hate going to school with a passion. I'm getting to a point where I don't even care at all. It used to be I cared about my grades, which i still do to some extent, and that I cared about looking decent and shit I could almost care less now. I have nothing and no one to look good for anymore. I guess I really haven't in a long time. I haven't hung out with my close friends in a long time and I don't really know why. I just don't see the point in going out anymore. I have no reason to, no desire to. I don't know what to do anymore. I've come to a roadblock and instead of trying to get around it, I feel like I might as well just leave it be, and stay. I just, I don't even know. I want someone who makes me happy, someone who will always be there. I just want someone.... Anyway, no one wants to listen to people bitch, so I'm done.