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So I might get my van back tomorrow which is a plus, Im sort of sick of this whole..waiting around for "mommy" to decide wether shes done with it or not. Its MY van by the way under MY name and paid for by ME. She just likes to take it sometimes and use the shit out of it and neglect it so when i get it back its trashed and smelly.
Thats pretty much the only bitch I have for today, I have to add classes to my schedule to morrow and I have no clue what to take because, I dont want to be in a classroom full of kids I dont know. If thats the case than I wont add classes Ill just keep mine the way they are.
uhhh, what to say what to say..
I want love so bad it hurts.
Im all fine when I dont htink about it and I live my everyday but man does it suck not being love and having someone TO BE IN LOVE WITH.
I want these simple things from a sweet boy..
1. Kindness
2. Affection
3. Respect
4. Intentions that are pure
5. Sweet kisses
6. Mad hott sex life
7. ATTENTION and lots of it...
my little acronym for karisma.. I WANT KARISMA DAMN IT.
I hate having a boyfriend where all they do is focus on themselves and what they have to do and not give one ounce of effort into seeing me. I guess its too much to expect someone to ASK or WANT to hang out with you. Im always up for hanging out with someone even if were doing nothing.
*sigh*
Im so good at making other people happy, but I wonder why someone would be so distant.
Do you NOT want love?
DO you NOT want to mbe happy?
Do you NOT want to smile every time that certain someone rolls around.
I feel like Im useless when Im not loving someone. I dont feel like my life is omplete in some ways.
Ive had friends that i love dearly and thats wonderful for me because I still DO love them and they still ARE my friends and I dontk now what I'd do without them.
But, on the other side of things, that love isnt the void in my life.
I miss the feeling of love. Even if it wasnt real, I miss being cared about and I miss constant huggs and passionate kisses, Its gonna be tough for me for the first week or two, because..
he needs to just open up...just tell me everythign and anything I could ever want or not want to know about him. He doesnt need to by she or uncomfertable with me.
He needs to learn that eye gazing is sweet instead of creepy.
I want him to be albe to be with me without having something to talk about and just enjoying the time we spend together.
I WANT to love him.
I want to know about past experiences, favorite bands, ex girlfriends and all that jazz.
I know Im not the only one.. there has to be SOMEONE else out there that longs for what I so dearly long for. I sound sappy and gay, But I dont know. This is new to me. HE is new to me, and I like that.
Hes got everything I could ask for, and I odnt hate or despise anythig about him.
With past relationships I would just bitch about girls and things and make it known what i CANT STAND about them, Its easy for me to find flaw..but what do i do when there is no flaw? what do i say? how do i act?
EXACTLY: Im speechless around him.
He astounds me and he doesnt even know it, I have nothing but good things to say about him.
He's my little Scene Queen and I love it.
I WANT this to last, I WANT to be there for him.
I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY, day in and day out..no matter what.
I WANT TO LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING...
I dont think ive ever wanted anything like this.
Im not a needy girl.
But I need him to open up and just, be HIM. The real down to earth born to be beautiful him.
I know hes there...he just needs to show me. I want to know about his past sex life and just, *sigh* everything.
Im not frustrated, or angry or anything really. Im just content in my life and the people I decide to share it with...
Thanks everybody,
All of you are just awesome to me and I dont deserve it.
But I do appreciate it more than words could ever explain.
This is MY entry...this is MY life..
now HE has to show me..
Thats pretty much the only bitch I have for today, I have to add classes to my schedule to morrow and I have no clue what to take because, I dont want to be in a classroom full of kids I dont know. If thats the case than I wont add classes Ill just keep mine the way they are.
uhhh, what to say what to say..
I want love so bad it hurts.
Im all fine when I dont htink about it and I live my everyday but man does it suck not being love and having someone TO BE IN LOVE WITH.
I want these simple things from a sweet boy..
1. Kindness
2. Affection
3. Respect
4. Intentions that are pure
5. Sweet kisses
6. Mad hott sex life
7. ATTENTION and lots of it...
my little acronym for karisma.. I WANT KARISMA DAMN IT.
I hate having a boyfriend where all they do is focus on themselves and what they have to do and not give one ounce of effort into seeing me. I guess its too much to expect someone to ASK or WANT to hang out with you. Im always up for hanging out with someone even if were doing nothing.
*sigh*
Im so good at making other people happy, but I wonder why someone would be so distant.
Do you NOT want love?
DO you NOT want to mbe happy?
Do you NOT want to smile every time that certain someone rolls around.
I feel like Im useless when Im not loving someone. I dont feel like my life is omplete in some ways.
Ive had friends that i love dearly and thats wonderful for me because I still DO love them and they still ARE my friends and I dontk now what I'd do without them.
But, on the other side of things, that love isnt the void in my life.
I miss the feeling of love. Even if it wasnt real, I miss being cared about and I miss constant huggs and passionate kisses, Its gonna be tough for me for the first week or two, because..
he needs to just open up...just tell me everythign and anything I could ever want or not want to know about him. He doesnt need to by she or uncomfertable with me.
He needs to learn that eye gazing is sweet instead of creepy.
I want him to be albe to be with me without having something to talk about and just enjoying the time we spend together.
I WANT to love him.
I want to know about past experiences, favorite bands, ex girlfriends and all that jazz.
I know Im not the only one.. there has to be SOMEONE else out there that longs for what I so dearly long for. I sound sappy and gay, But I dont know. This is new to me. HE is new to me, and I like that.
Hes got everything I could ask for, and I odnt hate or despise anythig about him.
With past relationships I would just bitch about girls and things and make it known what i CANT STAND about them, Its easy for me to find flaw..but what do i do when there is no flaw? what do i say? how do i act?
EXACTLY: Im speechless around him.
He astounds me and he doesnt even know it, I have nothing but good things to say about him.
He's my little Scene Queen and I love it.
I WANT this to last, I WANT to be there for him.
I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY, day in and day out..no matter what.
I WANT TO LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING...
I dont think ive ever wanted anything like this.
Im not a needy girl.
But I need him to open up and just, be HIM. The real down to earth born to be beautiful him.
I know hes there...he just needs to show me. I want to know about his past sex life and just, *sigh* everything.
Im not frustrated, or angry or anything really. Im just content in my life and the people I decide to share it with...
Thanks everybody,
All of you are just awesome to me and I dont deserve it.
But I do appreciate it more than words could ever explain.
This is MY entry...this is MY life..
now HE has to show me..