Well...
I haven't really felt like writing in here cus I've been kinda lazy. I stayed over at Val's from Thursday night til Saturday afternoon. Twas fun. HE was there the whole time too. And yeah. =) haha I smoked 3 packs of ciggs in two days. CraZy. I had alotta fun and I miss him. :'( And I don't know whether or not I should pursue it because of a few things getting in the way. It is so messed. But I feel so happy at the same time. But I just don't know. I really don't. I fucking hate the things that get in the way. Fuck.
Well anyways. I feel like shit. I don't wanna be here. I'm pissed that I smoked so many ciggs or else I would still have some. Because usually a pack lasts me for atleast two days. I guess I was nervous? lol. Who knows. Or maybe it was because they were Lights..I just could not get enough nicotine for some reason. I barely got any sleep within those two days. And I didn't eat shit because I just did not have an appetite. And yeah. I hope I get to see him this thursday or friday.
Ohh and I'm leavin in September when my stepdad gets home. He obviously don't want me here after ALL the shit I do for them. But it's okay. I'll be happy to leave. Fuckin people man. Jerrod came by yesterday and gave me my anarchy ball for my labret. thanx fool. lol. He hooked me up with 4 smokes too. I really hope his ass don't leave. God I'm so tired and bored. I just wanna die. Seriously. I don't wanna feel this fuckin pain anymore. Yeah..I know I've been saying I've been happy and stuff..but it's really just not everything. It's really not even all about that. And even the past few nights I cry myself to sleep,I really and truly do not want to be here. I know I make no sense at all..but maybe someone out there understands. I don't know what else to do. I don't even know what the fuck I'm saying. I don't know how to explain this. Ahh. Anyways. Enough of my bitching. I'm leavin this place anyways..Maybe then things will be better. PEaCE.