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i wrote this last night. but then the internet here shut off for some odd reason. but it saved my entry and i'm very happy about that:
i just updated myself on everyone’s live journals. and it makes me so happy to see that majority of my friends are so genuinely happy with their lives right now.
i have such great friends and sometimes i feel i don’t deserve them because i am never around that much due to other things going on in my life. when i'm home that is.
i had such a great summer and i love every friend i have.
i really miss meghan lever, jillian mattera, bryan friedman & chris pettit. i have a void in my life not seeing them daily. its depressing. but it makes going home so much more exciting. the four of them are truly my best friends. and people say you can only have one best friend. but i truly disagree. i love the four of them so much and couldn't imagine my life if i hadn't met them. they have all made such an impact on me. and i love them so much for it.
meg is coming up here for my birthday. which is in a week and 1 day. i'll finally be 19. also my sister is coming and chris!
being back at school is wonderful. i didn't realize how much i missed my friends here until i actually saw them and started having an amazing time again. i love how easy it is now for me to make that transition from being at school to going home and back again.
i am very content with everything in my life at the moment. i always feel over whelmed when i try to update this journal because i feel like i have to re-fill myself in on everything that’s going on in my life. but i'm okay with the fact that i'll never constantly update this. sometimes i think its better to just live with the memories i've had in the back of my head then trying to write it all down and re-live it that way. i become too nostalgic when i do and often get really depressed that i'm not still living those days.
i love my schedule. and i sit in class with a smile on my face for the first time because i really enjoy what i'm learning about. it makes going to class and doing homework so much easier because i want to be doing it. i hope i still have this mindset come next month when it gets harder. but i'm actually doing my homework and reading all of my text books that i said i wasn't going to buy. my teacher told me i had to read a 400 page book in 4 days. and i was like 'um yeah right. that’s not happening.' but i opened it up and actually read it. and i am so happy i did. because i really liked the book. and it gave me some new outlooks about things.
since i've been back i've already made new friends, re-kindled old friendships and made old friendships stronger. and i'm very pleased about all three.
living with kerri again is also very refreshing. we hardly talked throughout the summer. but i think it was better that way. i see her for 9 months straight and for us to still get along for all of that is impressive. i love that girl with all my heart. and i'm glad that while we're here we have such a great time, even if we're just sitting in our room together doing nothing. its always entertaining.
i hope everyone else is doing well. give me a call sometime. i'd love to hear from you.
and tonight was great. even though nothing exciting went on. me and 4 friends sat on a front porch and talked for hours. mostly about nothing and it couldn't have been any better.
i just updated myself on everyone’s live journals. and it makes me so happy to see that majority of my friends are so genuinely happy with their lives right now.
i have such great friends and sometimes i feel i don’t deserve them because i am never around that much due to other things going on in my life. when i'm home that is.
i had such a great summer and i love every friend i have.
i really miss meghan lever, jillian mattera, bryan friedman & chris pettit. i have a void in my life not seeing them daily. its depressing. but it makes going home so much more exciting. the four of them are truly my best friends. and people say you can only have one best friend. but i truly disagree. i love the four of them so much and couldn't imagine my life if i hadn't met them. they have all made such an impact on me. and i love them so much for it.
meg is coming up here for my birthday. which is in a week and 1 day. i'll finally be 19. also my sister is coming and chris!
being back at school is wonderful. i didn't realize how much i missed my friends here until i actually saw them and started having an amazing time again. i love how easy it is now for me to make that transition from being at school to going home and back again.
i am very content with everything in my life at the moment. i always feel over whelmed when i try to update this journal because i feel like i have to re-fill myself in on everything that’s going on in my life. but i'm okay with the fact that i'll never constantly update this. sometimes i think its better to just live with the memories i've had in the back of my head then trying to write it all down and re-live it that way. i become too nostalgic when i do and often get really depressed that i'm not still living those days.
i love my schedule. and i sit in class with a smile on my face for the first time because i really enjoy what i'm learning about. it makes going to class and doing homework so much easier because i want to be doing it. i hope i still have this mindset come next month when it gets harder. but i'm actually doing my homework and reading all of my text books that i said i wasn't going to buy. my teacher told me i had to read a 400 page book in 4 days. and i was like 'um yeah right. that’s not happening.' but i opened it up and actually read it. and i am so happy i did. because i really liked the book. and it gave me some new outlooks about things.
since i've been back i've already made new friends, re-kindled old friendships and made old friendships stronger. and i'm very pleased about all three.
living with kerri again is also very refreshing. we hardly talked throughout the summer. but i think it was better that way. i see her for 9 months straight and for us to still get along for all of that is impressive. i love that girl with all my heart. and i'm glad that while we're here we have such a great time, even if we're just sitting in our room together doing nothing. its always entertaining.
i hope everyone else is doing well. give me a call sometime. i'd love to hear from you.
and tonight was great. even though nothing exciting went on. me and 4 friends sat on a front porch and talked for hours. mostly about nothing and it couldn't have been any better.