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there's a specific type of girl i'm attracted to lately..
usually athletic and light hair.
i don't know..
if i knew how things would've panned out, i wouldn't have gone to new jersey to see vanessa. i would've stayed in ny and spent the weekend with noelle.
i'm so stupid.
speaking of, i wish i could remember the context of the conversation about philly last night but i was way too high..anyways, i thought of vanessa and it made me laugh.
part of me wants to be the good ex-girlfriend to noelle...supportive and still there for the person and wish them the best of luck but i only want to do that so she can see what she's missing out.
cause deep down inside just knowing she's seeing someone else is killing me.
the returning of the posessions what theeeee worst.
ugh :/
my friends are keeping my mind off of it so who knows...maybe sooner than i think i'll be over it.
my mom is getting me tegan and sara tickets for my birthday i think..she brought it up to me last week.
i don't know..i think i want something better.
california maybe?
[EDIT]
[Thursday
February 7, 08
4:07am]
i'm difficult to hold on to but once you have me, you have me completely.
my life is crazy and i'm gunna end up hurting a girl who's really nice and cares a lot.
i will not let my past hinder my future.
it's the secret.
i saw it coming, why didn't i stop it?
usually athletic and light hair.
i don't know..
if i knew how things would've panned out, i wouldn't have gone to new jersey to see vanessa. i would've stayed in ny and spent the weekend with noelle.
i'm so stupid.
speaking of, i wish i could remember the context of the conversation about philly last night but i was way too high..anyways, i thought of vanessa and it made me laugh.
part of me wants to be the good ex-girlfriend to noelle...supportive and still there for the person and wish them the best of luck but i only want to do that so she can see what she's missing out.
cause deep down inside just knowing she's seeing someone else is killing me.
the returning of the posessions what theeeee worst.
ugh :/
my friends are keeping my mind off of it so who knows...maybe sooner than i think i'll be over it.
my mom is getting me tegan and sara tickets for my birthday i think..she brought it up to me last week.
i don't know..i think i want something better.
california maybe?
[EDIT]
[Thursday
February 7, 08
4:07am]
i'm difficult to hold on to but once you have me, you have me completely.
my life is crazy and i'm gunna end up hurting a girl who's really nice and cares a lot.
i will not let my past hinder my future.
it's the secret.
i saw it coming, why didn't i stop it?