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I HATE BEING DEPRESSED. i'm feeling like absoluite shit at the moment. every day for the past week or two, i'll be fine and then suddenly crash for no reason. when i say crash, i mean that i'll go from being happy and 'normnal' to feeling awful. right now, i'm feeling lonely, suicidal, desparate to cut REALLY badly and i just feel all empty inside. not numb, just empty. like there's nothing inside of me at all anywhere. it's horrible. i don't understnad why it keeps happening to me and i HATE IT. i wish i could explain it better but i can't. grrr. i also keep feeling that i'm going to burst into tears. not a little bit. kinda Noahs' Ark amount of tears. i just feel awful. why???????
And i feel completely drained, like i've got nothing left to give out any more. all i can think about is myself which is wrong but i ave no energy left to do or think about anything else. i hate this. i hate me. i'm such a total bitch.
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And i feel completely drained, like i've got nothing left to give out any more. all i can think about is myself which is wrong but i ave no energy left to do or think about anything else. i hate this. i hate me. i'm such a total bitch.
Cut