so college........
ive come to two conculstions today:
1) distance destorys everything good that could have been execpt friends and family, why is that?
2) i need to update more often, its a good outlet, so i better start now.......
so Elon is almost over, only 24 days left and now i look back on all if it..............
Freshmen year:
wasnt what a freshmen year was spose to be. i got caught up in the past and didnt go out and make all the new friends i should have, i didnt put myself out there. i manged to get the RA job and that was about my freshmen year. i did enjoy hanging out with Steve Brown and all the times we just sat around. we were two of the same people. i should have kept in touch with him and hung out with him more before he graduated. my freshmen year was a wash, neither good or bad, i was just here.
Sophomore year:
Lived with paul. the best decision that we could have made. we had a hell of a room. had a hell of a time. played a shitload of ps2, a shit load of need for speed, and got drunk alot. had the RA job and really didnt do much for that just enough to get by. had a good year. spent the majority of my year with sara. i lost alot that year and gained so much. im sure that i was a disapointment to her and thats all my fault. alot of things were my fault that year. but thats what we do in life, we make mistakes and learn from them. the one thing i can say is that my relationship with her was not a mistake just the way i handled the end. in reality i got scared. and there is nothing i can do about it now but say im sorry. in general my sophmore year was a great year. had a ton of fun, and i wouldnt go back and change it for anything.
Junior year:
what i would have to say was my best year at college. lived in DC with a bunch of guys who were ended up being pretty damn cool although i didnt know any of them before i moved in. paul had a single too and once again we drank alot. we drank in DC, we drank in JC, we drank in HBB. we just had a damn good time. junior year was also my year with christie. everything was also so up and down, hot and cold between me and her till the spring. and then in the spring everything fell into place. i was blown away how perfect it was. i was blown away how great that year was and how much fun i had. i had my senior year that year with paul and christie. and then graduation came and my world fell apart. i felt like i lost everythying. and this place has never been the same since.
Senior year:
this had been the year of the bar. it seems like all i do is go to the bar or drink or work. ive been ready to get outta here since i got here. there hasnt been anything left here for me. although i have become great friends with jon which has made this year better then i had expect. JC isnt the same, campus isnt the same, nothing is the same without everyone that i knew that graduated. those people arent online anymore, i dont see them when walking across campus(even when its starts pouring down i still look across campus) and i dont get to hang out with them and pull all nighters. i guess thats what i get for being friends with people who are older then me. but now that there are only 24 days left, my senior year wasnt great, but it wasnt horrible. it was similar to freshmen year, i was just here working and staying to myself.
so overall college has been a ride. up and down all four years. fallen in love twice. its werid that its all over now. i get to go home take a month off and then start work July 10th. im buying a new car, moving out, being a groomsman, and just growing up even more i guess. hoping that everything will fall into place being home and close to everyone. who knows. all i know is all my friends including me have real jobs with real money, two of my friends own their own houses, and one of my friends is getting married and another one with a possibility. its werid.
i guess maybe ive come to the realization that everything happens for a reason. maybe i understand that but im still hoping. still dreaming. and yet im here alone everyday and every night. i guess its just time for another change of scenery, back to MD, back to crabs and beer, back to OC trips, back to seeing movies at Regal, back to ropewalk that is a highschool reunion, back to the place i grew up even though i grew up long before it did.............
1) distance destorys everything good that could have been execpt friends and family, why is that?
2) i need to update more often, its a good outlet, so i better start now.......
so Elon is almost over, only 24 days left and now i look back on all if it..............
Freshmen year:
wasnt what a freshmen year was spose to be. i got caught up in the past and didnt go out and make all the new friends i should have, i didnt put myself out there. i manged to get the RA job and that was about my freshmen year. i did enjoy hanging out with Steve Brown and all the times we just sat around. we were two of the same people. i should have kept in touch with him and hung out with him more before he graduated. my freshmen year was a wash, neither good or bad, i was just here.
Sophomore year:
Lived with paul. the best decision that we could have made. we had a hell of a room. had a hell of a time. played a shitload of ps2, a shit load of need for speed, and got drunk alot. had the RA job and really didnt do much for that just enough to get by. had a good year. spent the majority of my year with sara. i lost alot that year and gained so much. im sure that i was a disapointment to her and thats all my fault. alot of things were my fault that year. but thats what we do in life, we make mistakes and learn from them. the one thing i can say is that my relationship with her was not a mistake just the way i handled the end. in reality i got scared. and there is nothing i can do about it now but say im sorry. in general my sophmore year was a great year. had a ton of fun, and i wouldnt go back and change it for anything.
Junior year:
what i would have to say was my best year at college. lived in DC with a bunch of guys who were ended up being pretty damn cool although i didnt know any of them before i moved in. paul had a single too and once again we drank alot. we drank in DC, we drank in JC, we drank in HBB. we just had a damn good time. junior year was also my year with christie. everything was also so up and down, hot and cold between me and her till the spring. and then in the spring everything fell into place. i was blown away how perfect it was. i was blown away how great that year was and how much fun i had. i had my senior year that year with paul and christie. and then graduation came and my world fell apart. i felt like i lost everythying. and this place has never been the same since.
Senior year:
this had been the year of the bar. it seems like all i do is go to the bar or drink or work. ive been ready to get outta here since i got here. there hasnt been anything left here for me. although i have become great friends with jon which has made this year better then i had expect. JC isnt the same, campus isnt the same, nothing is the same without everyone that i knew that graduated. those people arent online anymore, i dont see them when walking across campus(even when its starts pouring down i still look across campus) and i dont get to hang out with them and pull all nighters. i guess thats what i get for being friends with people who are older then me. but now that there are only 24 days left, my senior year wasnt great, but it wasnt horrible. it was similar to freshmen year, i was just here working and staying to myself.
so overall college has been a ride. up and down all four years. fallen in love twice. its werid that its all over now. i get to go home take a month off and then start work July 10th. im buying a new car, moving out, being a groomsman, and just growing up even more i guess. hoping that everything will fall into place being home and close to everyone. who knows. all i know is all my friends including me have real jobs with real money, two of my friends own their own houses, and one of my friends is getting married and another one with a possibility. its werid.
i guess maybe ive come to the realization that everything happens for a reason. maybe i understand that but im still hoping. still dreaming. and yet im here alone everyday and every night. i guess its just time for another change of scenery, back to MD, back to crabs and beer, back to OC trips, back to seeing movies at Regal, back to ropewalk that is a highschool reunion, back to the place i grew up even though i grew up long before it did.............