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Ooh two posts within a week. Uh oh.
1. SO nice not to have drama. Way more fun to observe.
2. Started writing. It's actually what I thought it would sound like, for the first time writing without a piano. It's actually better, because I don't get distracted like I do with a piano right there. In front of a piano feels like I have to Write Music, while just writing and guessing at intervals is more like sketching (which I always liked more anyway). I do feel weird about studying counterpoint and all that, because all my teachers are telling us that you have to learn the rules before you can write, which is exactly opposite of what I did at Walden. But I guess even musicians have to grow up sometime and learn some form. I just feel way too cautious, and I know I can't write counterpoint well, so it makes me feel like I can't write anything well. Hopefully discussing this with Shawn, lesson on thursday, i think. But the choruses and ear training classes are really helping, because now i'm less reliant on something for pitches.
3. the jazz vocal workshop was so much fun last semester. i really wish i could be in it this term, it was really relaxing.
I don't really know what I want to do. I feel like I should stick with music at least for undergrad, it would be stupid to erase everything i've done so far. But I don't know how far I can go. Teach? I like it. But thinking about teaching for the last four years or so has made the idea a little less appealing. Write? but that's unrealistic. Sing? not good enough or want to be. Conduct? that's like teaching. And as for art, please. Teaching and research. All good things, but what if all i can do is academia? if that, even.
5. I wish I could see Sam.
1. SO nice not to have drama. Way more fun to observe.
2. Started writing. It's actually what I thought it would sound like, for the first time writing without a piano. It's actually better, because I don't get distracted like I do with a piano right there. In front of a piano feels like I have to Write Music, while just writing and guessing at intervals is more like sketching (which I always liked more anyway). I do feel weird about studying counterpoint and all that, because all my teachers are telling us that you have to learn the rules before you can write, which is exactly opposite of what I did at Walden. But I guess even musicians have to grow up sometime and learn some form. I just feel way too cautious, and I know I can't write counterpoint well, so it makes me feel like I can't write anything well. Hopefully discussing this with Shawn, lesson on thursday, i think. But the choruses and ear training classes are really helping, because now i'm less reliant on something for pitches.
3. the jazz vocal workshop was so much fun last semester. i really wish i could be in it this term, it was really relaxing.
I don't really know what I want to do. I feel like I should stick with music at least for undergrad, it would be stupid to erase everything i've done so far. But I don't know how far I can go. Teach? I like it. But thinking about teaching for the last four years or so has made the idea a little less appealing. Write? but that's unrealistic. Sing? not good enough or want to be. Conduct? that's like teaching. And as for art, please. Teaching and research. All good things, but what if all i can do is academia? if that, even.
5. I wish I could see Sam.