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well. i made a doctors appointment right after i purged.. ha i sounded terrible the lady thought i was calling because i had a cold or something. she goes, "are you sick?" i said.. kinda.
i was going to go in mainly for birth control pills. and then mention losing my hair. and then say, "i heard that happens when you lose alot of weight in a short period of time", hoping after that she'd ask. then i was going to blow up and tell her everything.
but a strange turn of events occured. the scale says i weigh 120.
at night, after drinking some water.
so now, i dont want to get better, because that would most likely mean gaining weight, and i now only have another 10 pounds to go. i guess. i have no idea what my "goal" weight is anymore..
i guess i'll still go for my birth control pills. which had better not make me gain weight :(
i was going to go in mainly for birth control pills. and then mention losing my hair. and then say, "i heard that happens when you lose alot of weight in a short period of time", hoping after that she'd ask. then i was going to blow up and tell her everything.
but a strange turn of events occured. the scale says i weigh 120.
at night, after drinking some water.
so now, i dont want to get better, because that would most likely mean gaining weight, and i now only have another 10 pounds to go. i guess. i have no idea what my "goal" weight is anymore..
i guess i'll still go for my birth control pills. which had better not make me gain weight :(