Dreams...
I realize I havn't really posted one of these inawhile. I admit, that I haven't have that many dreams that are interesting or that i remember. But now, I have two that are just insane. Deep, if you will.
The first one started off with me looking in a mirror. Now, for whatever reason unbeknowngst to me, I was girl. Moving on, I was apparently a little unstable. I had a person that I suppose was my handler. That's a person who takes care of someone or something. She kept repeating some code to me, "1A, 2B, 3C" Over and over again to make sure thatI got it. Then flash to another segment, I'm going down this beige, circular, enclosed staircase; continually going down, down, down. The stair cace, as I remember was refered to as my mind in the dream. I kept going down. When ever i got to the end, the wall next o the exit would glitch, revealing another staircase behind it. But everytime, it'd glitch and the wall would be there once more and prevent me from going any father down. Behind the exit door, was my handler. And the dream repeated with me going down into the staircase over and over again. And everytime, the same wall would glitch. Now, the last time, i make it to the wall, and it does not come back, revealing that the stair continued to go down even further. With an extreme sense of urgency, i go down those stairs. My handler is welling from above not to go down any further, but i don't listen and continue anyways. i felt like i was continually going father down into my mind. As i go down, it gets darker and darker and darker. Until i reach the end, there is barely any light to see with and it all seems so grey. But I remember touching the new wall in front of me, it was the end. What now, I thought, and with that everything started to go black. I passed out in the dream for just a moment. When I awake, I'm being pulled, running with my handler, and she's repeating that code to me. I repeat it back and tell her I'm fine. I kept wishing i could go back to that staircase.
The second. I was running. At first, i didn't know why, but I knew it was away from something. There was someone else running as well. A man, looke older. Apparently my partner; not "in crime" but someone who was tagging along with me. We were both being chased. I turned around and saw who was chasing me. A man. Tall, skinny, a black suit, dark sunglasses, and slicked back, black hair. He was walking. How he kept up, i didn't know. My dream took me through some village. All over. And there were ninja's, all in complete black. I remember calling out to them. "Help me! Help me!" But none of them moved, not even turned their heads to work. It was later that it was known that they were bad guys, but they had no significance. I picked up some large, fat really, bamboo shoot. i attacked the man with it. He did not even flinch or make any move to try and catch me. I cast it aside and kept running. Finally, my partner and i were cornered. Something was stolen from us, something that I was supposedly protecting. They took it and left. I remeber slapping myself at one point trying to wake up, but the slap didn't hurt, I was to stay in the dream.
Flash to the next part. I'm sitting in a very decorated room. Kind of oriental-designed. On a couch, with a girl next to me. She looked like my friend's sister, only i knew it was not her. She told me that she couldn't believe that I failed. I told her i knew and was really ashamed of myself for doing so. I also randomly remember an elephant statue on either the wall or on the coffee table in front of the couch. The floor was covered in a gold-lined red carpet. And the wall had a wallpaper that was either bamboo or some leaves. An older person then entered from a hallway. I can't be quite sure of my memory for thiss one, but i'm sure it was an older man. He told both of us that, "He is still caught in the spider's dream web." And it flashed to a man, seemingly entranced by a web like threading device in front of him; fiddlingly with it mindlessly. Back to us, i look at the girl and then away. i remember thinking how horrible that was and how could the man and the girl be so pleased with it. The man who was "caught", i now figure was my partner. They looked similar. Anyways, at some point I start to go from dream conscious to real consciousness. i flicker in and out. i can see my pillow, but i keep going back into the dream. i was trying my hardest to wake up, but i just couldn't.
Then another dream. I was exiting school. Michael Widdell was walking just behind me, and I rememeber walking as fast as i could just so I could stay ahead. i didn't want him to pass me for some reason. i get ahead and it seems I am walking through my gradparent's neighborhood. I pass someone, i think it's my friend Tien. i say her name to get her attention, but to no luck. I grab her and turn her around to look at me and it's not her, only someone who looks like her. I start to walk away and then I turn around to apologize. She is now with someone, i think her mother. I apologize and she asks my name. I tell her. I am myself at this point. She goes, "Oh! You're one of them." Apparently refering to the dream I JUST had. Her mother says to come to her, she wanted to show me something. So she takes out some device and gives me one and she takes the other. they vibrate. i put one in my mouth as instructed against the roof of my mouth and she puts the other to my forehead. She tells me, "This is how you'll access it." And again, the flickering in and out happens. The vibrations causing it. She was trying to help me wake up apparently, because as the flickering is happening, i couldn't open my eyes all the way. But then i just woke up.
These dreams...seem like they mean so much more. Why are they so indepth? I've never had anything like them before.
Also, it seems my method for leaving dreams/waking up is by opening my eyes in the dream. My eyes are open in the dream, obviously, but opening the FOR REAL, on another level. i can almost feel it as it happens in the dreams. And when opening my eyes didn't work, I paniced a little.