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Friday February 13, 1998 10:23P.M.
Well a lot has happened this week. Rachel and I are going out. Bob came over today. The entry on the 7th seems to be false on the matters of Bob. We hang out again. Today is the begging of February vacation, which means lots of band practices. Bob and I are probably going to hang out a lot. Rachel went to Florida so I can’t spend the week off with her. My valentines day is going to be spent with Colin. Colin’s cool and all, but he’s not my girlfriend. If he was I’d be scared. Anyways hopefully Colin and I will write something cool. I wish Rachel was around. My life’s pretty boring with no one in it. She told me she loved me again. I told her I did so back. I’ve been thinking might I actually be in love. I’m curious, still, on whether she truly loves me because it’s me.
*Comment June 9, 2004
I feel I should tell the tale of the circumstances surrounding how Rachel and I ended up going out. It was not exactly the best way to start off a relationship under any circumstances. To this day I believe it was the worst beginning I have ever had concerning relationships. First off at some point during the week she had some friends over and she called me up to ask me out again because she figured I would say yes this time. We had been together for a while at this point. However, I still said no, I didn’t really love her or anything and I wasn’t into the idea of being in a relationship back then. Anyway, after I said no, she ended up handing the phone off to one of her friends and they started yelling at me about it. Which in turn pissed me off; I was not nearly as passive as I was back then. After a few minutes of arguing I just hung up on them all. I called back a few minutes later and angrily said to Rachel “Alright we’re going out now.” I’m not sure if this ended up being one of the worst or best decisions in made in my life. It was in the end quite a learning experience, but I will dedicate an entire update to how our relationship developed and ended. All in all it was an incredible learning experience in retrospect. However, my opinions on love have changed absolutely drastically and my treatment of my loved ones have also changed incredibly over the years as people now know.
Well a lot has happened this week. Rachel and I are going out. Bob came over today. The entry on the 7th seems to be false on the matters of Bob. We hang out again. Today is the begging of February vacation, which means lots of band practices. Bob and I are probably going to hang out a lot. Rachel went to Florida so I can’t spend the week off with her. My valentines day is going to be spent with Colin. Colin’s cool and all, but he’s not my girlfriend. If he was I’d be scared. Anyways hopefully Colin and I will write something cool. I wish Rachel was around. My life’s pretty boring with no one in it. She told me she loved me again. I told her I did so back. I’ve been thinking might I actually be in love. I’m curious, still, on whether she truly loves me because it’s me.
*Comment June 9, 2004
I feel I should tell the tale of the circumstances surrounding how Rachel and I ended up going out. It was not exactly the best way to start off a relationship under any circumstances. To this day I believe it was the worst beginning I have ever had concerning relationships. First off at some point during the week she had some friends over and she called me up to ask me out again because she figured I would say yes this time. We had been together for a while at this point. However, I still said no, I didn’t really love her or anything and I wasn’t into the idea of being in a relationship back then. Anyway, after I said no, she ended up handing the phone off to one of her friends and they started yelling at me about it. Which in turn pissed me off; I was not nearly as passive as I was back then. After a few minutes of arguing I just hung up on them all. I called back a few minutes later and angrily said to Rachel “Alright we’re going out now.” I’m not sure if this ended up being one of the worst or best decisions in made in my life. It was in the end quite a learning experience, but I will dedicate an entire update to how our relationship developed and ended. All in all it was an incredible learning experience in retrospect. However, my opinions on love have changed absolutely drastically and my treatment of my loved ones have also changed incredibly over the years as people now know.