sending out an s.o.s.
so in the past few days my car has been vandalized and then hit, my brakes are going too..hate mercedes'.. love my life. i'm really trying to be positive about my life but i can't help at times to feel down about my life in general. I've never felt more alone. I crave change so much, and have been working so hard towards my "escape" and i've gotten so so far.. but now it could really be here and i'm scared, and very unsure of what i want. we got a kitten, she's cute but she makes me miss shnickz even more. it seems like i do alot of 'missing' these days,i miss you so much.. i'm a retard.. it doesnt even matter..i swear something's got to give, i can't keep living this way, i'm drowning.