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so i havent wrote in a long time except about moving . And well thats because thats the only good thing in my life right now. Im so lonely i feel like i should just pop bunch of vicadin and let the pain slowly slide away as my body goes numb. i tried to be happy again, well a few times, but it didnt work.
i told him i couldnt do this thing ne more, i couldnt be attached to him if i wanted to find someone of my own and actually be happy. so i asked him if he even cared, and he said no only as what we are. i dont understand how you can share things, and still just be friends. so now im moving on, yeah itll take a while, but i wont ever go back.
im sorry if i led you on, i think all i liked was what was on the outside. the insides they are friend material. i guess i should stop opeing my mouth befor i know people it seems to be pushing me twards alot of shitty relationships.
The most disgusting thing iv ever heard happend to some one in my family. its like watching a ophra show about rap and molestation, but its real in front of me thing time. if i could kill the basturd who touched my lil cuzin i would, but then she would be father-less. i hope to god that sick fuck gets help, cause no one should ever be treated like that forcefully, its so wrong.
i hope you know the things you said to me the other day really hurt me. i felt like you try to say my life is going down the drain, when its finally crawling back up. i may look like shit from working all the time, but im really not doing that bad. i have plans. i making good money now, moving out, then this summer trying to find a job at this really good reastuarnt, then going back to school. i havent seen you do that yet. your almost 20 and you havent been to school sence you got out of night school 2 years ago. its only been one for me, whats your excuse? are you going to plow snow and build houses for the rest of your life? sounds like fun i guess im lookin better now huh? i always hoped we would always be friends after we broke uo, and ya it worked for a while, but please stop pretending. i know we rnt friends i know you dont like my life style. so give it up, and say it, so i dont have to continue to pretend to be sad that i never see you.
i told him i couldnt do this thing ne more, i couldnt be attached to him if i wanted to find someone of my own and actually be happy. so i asked him if he even cared, and he said no only as what we are. i dont understand how you can share things, and still just be friends. so now im moving on, yeah itll take a while, but i wont ever go back.
im sorry if i led you on, i think all i liked was what was on the outside. the insides they are friend material. i guess i should stop opeing my mouth befor i know people it seems to be pushing me twards alot of shitty relationships.
The most disgusting thing iv ever heard happend to some one in my family. its like watching a ophra show about rap and molestation, but its real in front of me thing time. if i could kill the basturd who touched my lil cuzin i would, but then she would be father-less. i hope to god that sick fuck gets help, cause no one should ever be treated like that forcefully, its so wrong.
i hope you know the things you said to me the other day really hurt me. i felt like you try to say my life is going down the drain, when its finally crawling back up. i may look like shit from working all the time, but im really not doing that bad. i have plans. i making good money now, moving out, then this summer trying to find a job at this really good reastuarnt, then going back to school. i havent seen you do that yet. your almost 20 and you havent been to school sence you got out of night school 2 years ago. its only been one for me, whats your excuse? are you going to plow snow and build houses for the rest of your life? sounds like fun i guess im lookin better now huh? i always hoped we would always be friends after we broke uo, and ya it worked for a while, but please stop pretending. i know we rnt friends i know you dont like my life style. so give it up, and say it, so i dont have to continue to pretend to be sad that i never see you.