bypass happiness, depression...enter frustration and anger...
Okay...another bad night...alone...one word: WHATTHEFUCKEVER!!
Lately, I've been realizing that I only experience depression for a very very short time when I think about how much I hate being single...it transfers immediately to frustration, and at some times, anger..
It pisses the hell out of me when my friends (particularly female friends) tell me that I'm attractive and cute and all that crap, and that I'd make such a great and wonderful boyfriend...AND I'M STILL FUCKING SINGLE!!!!!
I was at stop and shop with Gina one night gettign some food, and she told me that I had the right to be frustrated, but not to let it consume me...however, I am entitled to let it consume me every once in a while...like right now...
My 23rd birthday is in a little more than 3 months...and I'm dreading it...probably gonna stay home by myself, waiting for friends to call or IM and wish me Happy Birthday, only to fall asleep with the phone still in my hand, and no calls whatsoever...I'm gonna fucking be 23 years old...
I've come to the decision that if I'm not in a relationship by Midnight, January 1st, 2005...I'm probably gonna be one step closer to declaring confirmed bachelor status...permanently...someone give me some reasons why I shouldn't, and I'll think about considering about thinking about considering reconsidering my decision (made you think for a sec there, huh???)
Oh yeah, for those of you who strongly believe the theory that there is someone for everyone in the world...you sure as hell haven't met me...I'm believing that theory as much as I believe the fucking JFK magic bullet theory...
So, yeah, I'm done venting...feeling a little better...leave me some love as always, and I'll be back when I update or vent about hating being single...bye everyone...
Lately, I've been realizing that I only experience depression for a very very short time when I think about how much I hate being single...it transfers immediately to frustration, and at some times, anger..
It pisses the hell out of me when my friends (particularly female friends) tell me that I'm attractive and cute and all that crap, and that I'd make such a great and wonderful boyfriend...AND I'M STILL FUCKING SINGLE!!!!!
I was at stop and shop with Gina one night gettign some food, and she told me that I had the right to be frustrated, but not to let it consume me...however, I am entitled to let it consume me every once in a while...like right now...
My 23rd birthday is in a little more than 3 months...and I'm dreading it...probably gonna stay home by myself, waiting for friends to call or IM and wish me Happy Birthday, only to fall asleep with the phone still in my hand, and no calls whatsoever...I'm gonna fucking be 23 years old...
I've come to the decision that if I'm not in a relationship by Midnight, January 1st, 2005...I'm probably gonna be one step closer to declaring confirmed bachelor status...permanently...someone give me some reasons why I shouldn't, and I'll think about considering about thinking about considering reconsidering my decision (made you think for a sec there, huh???)
Oh yeah, for those of you who strongly believe the theory that there is someone for everyone in the world...you sure as hell haven't met me...I'm believing that theory as much as I believe the fucking JFK magic bullet theory...
So, yeah, I'm done venting...feeling a little better...leave me some love as always, and I'll be back when I update or vent about hating being single...bye everyone...